Faith's Lullaby

Faith's Lullaby

A Poem by Faith Knoll

I drag myself out that bed
In hopes that one day this could all end
'Cause I just don't see how this could all mend
Maybe if someone had a shoulder they could lend?
I don't know how far this world thinks that I can bend
But even when I stand back up strong
The wind tends to prolong
My knees fall right back down
My crown hits the ground!
Save me! I'm drownin' now!
Maybe it's over, wow!
Now, can I finally take a bow?
I'm done with this! Ouch! 
I wake up to find myself
Layin', slunched over on the couch
And I just flutter my eyes because
I'm just trynna figure out how I'm actually alive
Damn it! What a f*****g surprise
Doesn't God hear my cries?
Shut your mouth, don't try to emphathize or optimize
Let's be real, how the hell did I survive?
I had a plan that I would end it all by suicide
It's called a f*****g goodbye
Hell no, I ain't scared
But right now, I guess my soul just ain't ready to collide 
With the fact that I gave myself up, just like a sacrifice
Did you know that on the inside, I am deprived
I can't even begin to describe the disguise I wear 
That you can't see from the outside
And still, I continue to abide and compromise for you and your allies
Did I hit the bullseye?
I don't need your advice
I think I can decide if I wan to see the sunrise
I will not apologize and this I will testify
My internal drive has taken a dive and I ain't even 25.
These are my lullabies.

© 2017 Faith Knoll


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Most of us know struggle. I never thought to do suicide. I lost two brothers to suicide when I was young.. I was a runner. I would leave countries and states. Begin again. I could feel the need to know peace and sanity in the words. Thank you Faith for sharing your words and thoughts.. I do appreciate.
Coyote

Posted 6 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

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Faith Knoll

6 Years Ago

Thank you, Coyote! And I'm deeply sorry for your loss... however, something I learned during the tim.. read more
Coyote Poetry

6 Years Ago

Pain is a gift. Maybe not a good one. You are welcome Faith.



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Very well done. I like the way you use repetitive rhymes & the rhyming words are sophisticated not simple rhymes -- this takes much skill & a love of vocabulary. You've used just enuf rhyme to keep this like a snappy upbeat message, yet your sentiments are deeply conveyed with the realistic pain of feeling s****y. You've used just enuf profanity to give your message "zing" without going overboard & making it sound vulgar. All in all a very well-balanced way to show how this nasty feeling feels.

Posted 6 Years Ago


Most of us know struggle. I never thought to do suicide. I lost two brothers to suicide when I was young.. I was a runner. I would leave countries and states. Begin again. I could feel the need to know peace and sanity in the words. Thank you Faith for sharing your words and thoughts.. I do appreciate.
Coyote

Posted 6 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

This comment has been deleted by the poster.
Faith Knoll

6 Years Ago

Thank you, Coyote! And I'm deeply sorry for your loss... however, something I learned during the tim.. read more
Coyote Poetry

6 Years Ago

Pain is a gift. Maybe not a good one. You are welcome Faith.
I love the story you tell in this

Posted 6 Years Ago


Faith Knoll

6 Years Ago

Thank you!

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