everlasting

About the realization of the callowness of youth and the regrets of love lost in the rush of living.

there was much in the way of time

when i left my loved one,

i was young then,

on the run

but time has a way of

 

...  creeping

 

of seeping through crevices

unnoticed in the rush of living

 

if i could be forgiven

i would rest in peace

but i cannot sleep

knowing all i lost

 

i was young then,

time seemed endless

there were places to go 

people to see

before i knew it 

i was in too deep

 

too deep to acknowledge 

all i was losing

i was cruising

living for adventure

until that moment i awoke...

 

the frost was thick

the snow was deep

when i awakened from a dreamless sleep

and for the first time felt the cold

 

... i was old

 

my bones never felt more chilled

then on that day realizing 

i frittered it all away...

 

when i left my loved one

i was young then

my heart callow

calloused with the pride of youth

my words were fast often straying from truth

yet i loved her...even when on the run

but time has a way of

 

... creeping

 

of seeping through crevices

unnoticed in the rush of living

i wasted my youth

i wanted it all

i was driven

 

and now i cannot sleep

i cannot find peace of mind

i left my true love behind

 

consumed by the rush of living

i took for granted all she was giving

i am haunted by her memory

haunted by her scent 

 

...it still comes to me

adrift in those moments

between dreams and waking ...

 

how long can one heart exist

when constantly breaking?

heavy with the knowledge 

of selfish forsaking...

 

hers was a heart that loved me true

she was a tender white lily

sweet as fresh morning dew

 

how much pain can a broken heart take

before shriveling to the core?

how much can regret continue to devour 

until there simply is no more ...?

 

when i die

i shall not sleep

but a restless earthbound soul i'll be

doomed to repent all that i lost ...

grieving everlastingly

Reviews

[Nani Mino]

hope is life and nobody can steal smile from our hearts. dream is the seeds of true life.fantastic poem i loved it

[felioness]

Thank you for the read and encouraging comment

[Coyote Poetry]

Amazing use of words and thoughts. I like the deep thoughts and questions.
"how much pain can a broken heart take
before shriveling to the core?
how much can regret continue to devour
until there simply is no more ...?"
The above lines were my favorite. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[felioness]

Thank you for the read and words that inspire!

[Coyote Poetry]

Was my pleasure and you are welcome.