My Name Is...

I wrote this one night at work....I'm not sure whereit came from, but here it is. Blantant honesty.

My name is Chelsea. People say I have everything going for me and wonder why I'm not happy. I'm going places they tell me. I'm pretty they say. So why am I pessimistic to the extreme? Why do frown lines crease my fagile skin more deeply than lines of laughter?

Everyone has their s**t they say. Yes, that's true. My problem is that I let mine affect me. I can't just smile and say, "Oh well, there's always tomorrow(:". Thats not how it is for me. I starve my troubles and engrave them into my skin forever. The good things I have seem forever shaded beneath the darkest shadows of past lives and beliefs. Darkened waters are gilded with silver and shine red in the moonlight, as haunted and suspicious whispers echo in my footsteps, penetrating my shabby armor. I rush to my blacksmith to attempt a patch-up before a full-scale breakdown of protection occurs... Sometimes, he's too late, and the whispers hiss through flesh like burning waters. How can I defend against such an assault, much less daily? How can I pretend the burns dont leave permanent yet invisible scars?

 

But I'll hide behind this fierce facade, knowing now why the unnoticed wind sighs to the trees in the deepest depths of night.

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[TLK]

2nd favourite line provoked some writing from me: "Everyone has their s**t, they say. The consumption of failure produces waste, and the body erupts it in anger at its own treachery."

Favourite line is, of course, "I starve my troubles and engrave them into my skin forever". My question, of course, is whether other people see them. You wonder this too ("invisible scars").

I hope you, one day, find out exactly how gentle an exfoliant time is. One day, quite simply, you will not be you anymore. All of your cells will have been replaced. Your situation will be different. The people that you know now will either be unimportant memories, or be important to you in a similar way but somehow not quite the same. It's an interesting change and this poem has provoked me into thinking about it.

[FireFly]

Thanks for your review! It given me something to think about as well....hopefully some new writing out of it, too :D