So This is What Loneliness Feels Like

It wanes a soft, subtle ache; unrelenting, whispering in my ear just loud enough to remind me. As I pace, I pick up a book and thumb through the pages with undue concern.  I glance again at the unwavering, uncaring time.  Outside the children still play, the cars still buzz by; for they don't know that I'm here, and lonely.  Where are the arms that will hold me when I'm 60 years of age? The longing gaze that tells me I am still meant to be here. This is not the grand solitude that I've always longed for. This isn't what the end was supposed to be. Where do I belong for the rest of my life?  Not here, not now. 
For if this is what loneliness feels like, I won't stay.

Reviews

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A write I really understand and it wages in a wind full of questions asking why. I gave up on wondering why I am alone only real is from few online never a real moment before the clouds and rays that shine and people ask why and I tell them I say we live in a judging world now no1 see's me for me that friend one who has heart state of mind its always a label they so give been in my brokenness I am still here alone in a mist no friends because they only use and screw me over and one gets tired that. But the thoughts of me being judged and labeled makes me mad so I rage in a gym it keeps me sane.

[Mari' Emeraude]

I think that's what drives alot of people into solitude...the judgmental world in which we live. read moreI think that's what drives alot of people into solitude...the judgmental world in which we live.

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Yep so true it changes one inside and out makes one want to stay idk in a mist yet wishing one just see them for who they are ohh well right lol!

[Chris]

Good luck with that... so many can't even live with themselves let alone someone else...

[Mari' Emeraude]

...and its funny because I thrive on my solitude! I guess sometimes loneliness and being alone are blurred lines for me. Thx for reading.

[Chris]

It really isn't just you...

[Neville]

Sette my reviewing predecessor is absolutely spot on Mari, honest injun, it may not feel like it at this precise time but stick it out, introduce something new, take a peek at what is around ya and enjoy those little things you find there....Actually, as good as they make it sound, I know it aint easy and I hope this excellent write lends more to your creative imagination than to your subjective perception of present reality.......All the very best of good things to ya...N

[sette]

there is the psycho social theory of erikson that in this stage 60 years and above it is referred to as generativity vs. stagnation wherein it is the beginning effect of the empty nest syndrome but still it should not discourage us to do something worthwhile but should continue to inspire us that we still have our purposes in this life.