Parting you lush lips against mine saying how you missed me. The butterflies return. Aftera marriage gone awry and a daughter we share. You still need me want me and kiss me again like when I was seventeen and you were sixteen and we would sneak to be alone together to steal a kiss.

But now...Eleven years later you look at me and I'm afraid to look you in the eyes afraid you'll steal my heart away and I will be powerless to stop it.  When you look at me that way with your heart and your need in you eyes I know that you will always love, cherish and hurt me.

So to be with you is so very sweet like our daughters smile but so torurous even while I'm kissing you I don't want to let you in. So I fight my heart and head.

To be away from you is easier I dont have to fight my heart only the dreams in my head. Rememberinghow you gently pulled me close and moaned with pleasure as you caressed my stomach under my shirt and kissed me all the while.

You didn't know I wanted more you didn't know I was almost in a heap at your feet. You didn't know that even after the kisses you gave me the butterflies flew around in my stomach.

You didn't know how very good it felt.

All  could think was oh no my heart is being stolen and he doesnt even know. 

After all that's happened between us I'm not sure I want to ever tell him.

There are no words

For the soft gentle moments

Of White, puffy clouds, first kiss

and first love.

I feel fuzzy and lonely 

Happy but sad

Hopeful but anxious

Loved but neglected

Passion is dreamy the love overwhelming

I'm falling fast

Someone please help me

Going crazy need to find my footing

I'm a strong able minded woman don't want to be mush

Help me! and if you can't help me 

Help him fall as hard as me... 

Natalie Lozano