Chapter 1

My 21 year is my rebellion year. A year that i feel the most vulnerable.

Twenty One.

 

What do you think about that number? Well, is it a number?

In my country,, Twenty �" One is a movie theatre. They called it Cinema XXI. Quite exclusive though. But why? Why it has to be twenty one?

 

Green Days sings about it. Twenty One Guns. Why? I like that song though.

 

For some people, in my country of course, twenty one is a puberty year for boys. What do you think about that? Is a puberty depends on numbers?

 

Well, I was 21 years old a year ago. I wasn’t in my puberty year if you wonder, because I’m a girl.  For me, my puberty was started 8 years ago when I got my first period. The first period? Not awful at all. Well, at least for me. But then, as I’m growing order until now, it’s like my body ist’y my body anymore, and my mind’s like, it’s full of negative aura. It’s really awfull. But that’s not what I want to talk about.

 

My 21 year is my rebellion year. Why? Because it was a year when I always have to choose what I don’t want to choose. You know, it’s like what I have believed all my life is wrong!  I was doubting myself, my choice. It was like I don’t know what was good for me anymore. I found my self vulnerable.

 

 

It began when I broke up with my boyfriend on my late 20 year..

 

I met him in a college.  You know, like a hot college boy, he is tall, handsome, and adorable. Every girl adores him. Yeah, I admit it I  adore him that time, but that’s not the reason I wanna be his girlfriend. Back then, before on college, I was so madly in love with this guy, Chuck, which was stupid, because he had a girlfriend. At first, I didn’t like him, but he came to me and we became friends. Yeah, maybe friends level 2? Haha, I know, it was wrong. But for me, he was the right guy but in the wrong time. I didn’t want to tell about him more further because I’m afraid that will make me fall again. But anyway, I hadn’t move on from him until I met my hot college boy, Stefan. The only reason why I want to be with him is because whenever I’m with Stefan, I can forget him.

 

Stefan was the perfect boyfriend. Every girl envied me. It last for 15 months. We decided to break up. We were fine actually, but the thought of the future made us worried. We were born in different city, and I don’t want to live in this big city, I want to buld a family in my hometown. He had a different idea, so we were over.

 

At summer break, I went back to my hometown. Meeting some old friends. Including Chuck. To be honest, everytime I met him, the old feelings is coming back again. But, again, I can’t tell you any further. Haha. There was some other guy, who had a crush on me when I was in the first grade of senior high school. I ignored him, because I was not interested with him at all. His name is Ron. Well, Ron knew that I was broke up with Stefan, so he tried to get me again.  Ron was much better than when I ignored him. He grew muscles, and wow, he looked masculine. So, I thought, Why not?

 

My parents loves Ron. My friend want us to be together. To be honest, I wasn’t a type of girl that easy to get. Not being cocky, but that’s the truth. As long as my heart is not clicked with that person, bye bye then. Actually, I didn’t feel the chemistry with Ron. My heart still closed for him. Then I thought, he is kind, gentle, loves me sincerely, what else that I looking for?

 

On my 21^st birthday, he asked me to be his girlfriend.

I said yes.

Author's Note

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[MomzillaNC]

An interesting essay.

NOTES: I'm sure there are more edits/recommendations to be found. There are a few tense and perspective shifts that I didn't feel I could edit for you without changing your meaning. I made a few first pass corrections for you, though. I've included an edited copy:

Twenty One.
 
What do you think about that number? Well, is it a number?
In my country, Twenty - One is a movie theatre. They called it Cinema XXI. Quite exclusive though. But why? Why it has to be twenty-one?
 
Green Days sings about it - “Twenty-One Guns” - Why? I like that song, though.
 
For some people, in my country of course, twenty-one is a puberty year for boys. What do you think about that? Does puberty depend on numbers?
 
Well, I was 21 years old a year ago. I wasn’t in my puberty year if you wonder, because I’m a girl.  For me, my puberty started eight years ago when I got my first period. The first period? Not awful at all…. Well, at least for me. But then, as I’m growing older now, it’s like my body isn’t my body anymore; my mind’s like… it’s full of negative aura. It’s really awful. But that’s not what I want to talk about.
 
My 21st year is my rebellion year. Why? Because it was a year when I always had to choose what I didn’t want to choose. You know, it’s like what I have believed all my life is wrong!  I was doubting myself, my choices. It was like I didn’t know what was good for me anymore. I found myself vulnerable.
  
It began when I broke up with my boyfriend on my late 20th year.
 
I met him in a college. You know, like those hot college boys, he is tall, handsome, and adorable. Every girl adores him. Yeah, I admit it: I  adored him at that time; but that’s not the reason I wanna be his girlfriend. Back then, before college, I was madly in love with this guy, Chuck, which was stupid, because he had a girlfriend. At first, I didn’t like him, but he came to me and we became friends. Yeah, maybe friends level 2? Ha, ha, I know, it was wrong. But for me, he was the right guy, but at the wrong time. I didn’t want to tell about him more further because I’m afraid that will make me fall again. But anyway, I hadn’t moved on from him until I met my hot college boy, Stefan. The only reason why I want to be with him is because whenever I’m with Stefan, I can forget him… Chuck.
 
Stefan was the perfect boyfriend. Every girl envied me. It lasted for 15 months. We decided to break up. We were fine actually, but the thought of the future made us worried. We were born in different cities and I don’t want to live in this big city; I want to build a family in my hometown. He had a different idea, so we were over.
 
At summer break, I went back to my hometown and met up with some old friends, including Chuck. To be honest, every time I met him, the old feelings come back again. But, again, I can’t tell you any more. Ha, ha. There was another guy, who had a crush on me when I was a freshman in high school. I ignored him, because I was not interested with him at all. His name is Ron. Well, Ron knew that I broke up with Stefan, so he tried to attract me again.  Ron was much better than back when I’d ignored him. He;d grown muscles… wow, he looked masculine. So, I thought, Why not?
 
My parents love Ron. My friends want us to be together. To be honest, I wasn’t a type of girl that easy to attract… not being cocky, but that’s the truth. As long as my heart is not clicked with that person, bye, bye then. Actually, I didn’t feel the chemistry with Ron. My heart was still closed to him. Then I thought, He is kind, gentle, loves me sincerely, what else that I looking for?
 
On my 21st birthday, he asked me to be his girlfriend.

I said, “Yes.”