Focus

Focus

A Poem by Hailey Juliet
"

Sharpening blur . . .

"
so about that mindfuck
that existential innuendo 
you planted in my brain
well it's taken,
i mean, i'm taken
by you,
or the idea of you, or
something

like the first time i felt weightless:
shivering, mate-less, and under-dressed
like those repressed thoughts i have
and don't let go
like time
like, untouchable
like, 'i don't know'

like, you + i
said,
you'll have to carry me,
cheeks flushed red,
a blush, 
laid me out on that bed
and led me
metaphysically
through the depths of your head
where you were, 
nothing and everything
and lazarus,
slaughtered me, dead
and we rose,
together,
said,
  Oh . . . jesus . . .

I'm so about that mindfuck



© 2018 Hailey Juliet



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Oh, I just LOVE that you expanded on the mindfuck from the blur poem! Genius to turn it into a part two of the film series in your head... so that begs the question, will there be a part three??? Now I am hooked like a Netflix junkie ha ha...

This one, might just be better in a few ways, though Blur is amazing in and of itself..

So, I will take a crack at this.... This one is called Focus, because he did it to you again. It's no longer a blur (you-black pixel)... but he brought you into focus (sharpening blur) in a mindfuck... still my mind is blown at this concept. I am still trying to wrap my brain around it.. and I think the concept itself might just be mindfucking me.....

I just love how you revisited the musing of him on purpose "so about that mindfuck"

I like how you correct yourself and how you're taken: "it's taken, i mean i'm taken" you are coming to an awareness of your true feelings and how you are captivated by him, his mind, the possibilities and the mystery. It's vulnerable and real and honest-love that.

"Existential innuendo" love this! Want to steal it sometime!!!

I love the 2nd stanza because I read it like you were having a conversation with yourself or a girlfriend.. but also captured the similes. It just brought me back to that twitterpated giddiness from the blur poem. I am so fond of that! That inspires me.. I am going to have to infuse some of my vulnerable girly OCD/second-guessing questioning everything but evaluating everything that took place into my work.. only nothing has physically taken place with this guy... he consumes your mind, and that is deeper yet... so much more to ponder and wonder about.. a virtual playground to play with him... he could f**k you all over the place in there! I love the possibilities of that!!!

"shivering, mate-less, and under-dressed" At first I read "undressed" in my mind.. which goes to show you where my mind jumped with this existential innuendo, but this is just such a juicy smashing together of words. You describe your nerves, your state of being alone and the exposed lack of confidence in not being clothed.. being aware that you feel naked in your mind as he roams around in there on the prowl (I, personally wouldn't mind him crawling around in my mind, but I can relate that sense that in the exposure of him existing there, he all of sudden sees all the parts of you, and therefore sees the true depths of you, the flaws and broken parts and the most important parts of you--of course one would feel awkward and under-dressed!)

And then in the 3rd stanza, you submit and succumb...aggghhh "you have to carry me" like I am just mush before you now, you are mindfucking me so bad.

And you died and rose again there? That's the opposite of Romeo and Juliet.. you don't just lie down to die, you bring each other back to life. How fantastically tragic and epic and literally mind-blowing!

I think I dig your thinking perhaps equivalent to or maybe more than your exceptional writing and editing skills! I am totally hooked on this concept of an existential metaphysical mindfuck!!

So interesting thought this brings up, I imagine being mind fucked is even better than being eye-fucked... but I now ponder about times I may have been taken advantage of without having even known it... all of a sudden, I feel awkward and under-dressed.

In this you found a deliciously brilliant way to encapsulate not being able to stop thinking about someone you are infatuated with or just totally hooked on the mystery of knowing who this stranger might be.

Another one of my favorites from you!! Thanks for the invite!!

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Hailey Juliet

3 Months Ago

Alexa, woooow! Thank you soo much for the lengthy, lovely, and in-depth review. I can't tell you h.. read more
Alexa Apothic Red

3 Months Ago

You're welcome Hailey! It's always my pleasure!! You and I are peas in a pod-I did the exact same th.. read more



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I like this..... i am too all about the mindfuck... be honoured to have your thoughts on one orntwonof mine.. they are short.. my lonely, poisoned soul, and confidemce dwindling are the one's i would like to know how they reflect with people

Posted 1 Week Ago


Why does this sound so relevant? I guess it's that season for mindfuckery and blurriness. Feeling the morning vibes and here we are reading poems like these. Boy oh boy

Posted 3 Weeks Ago


Wow, that was an intense read the journey felt chaotic, yet exquisite. Great write.

Posted 2 Months Ago


This can be interpreted in SO many different ways, I honestly loved it!

Posted 3 Months Ago


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Okay, Hailey, I'll admit it. I read Alexa's review before writing my own. I'd like to say she said everything I'd say, but that would be a lie. I'm not that deep. You're both exceptional writers, and her review is dead-on regarding your thinking and writing. It's impressive. I like this one, possibly better than Blur. At risk of seeming corny, this one had a sharpness and clarity the other didn't. So, kudos on reconciling the title and content. Plus, it's easier for simple guys like me to understand. I particularly like the Lazarus reference at the end. It's another example of how your originality separates you from other writers. Well done!

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Alexa Apothic Red

3 Months Ago

I completely agree about the reconciliation of the title and the content.. not somethingni considere.. read more
Alexa Apothic Red

3 Months Ago

*something I
Hailey Juliet

3 Months Ago

Thank you so much Robert! I really enjoy reading your thoughts as well and I'm glad you liked the p.. read more
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I am in love with this ❤️

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Hailey Juliet

3 Months Ago

Thank you:)
Oh, I just LOVE that you expanded on the mindfuck from the blur poem! Genius to turn it into a part two of the film series in your head... so that begs the question, will there be a part three??? Now I am hooked like a Netflix junkie ha ha...

This one, might just be better in a few ways, though Blur is amazing in and of itself..

So, I will take a crack at this.... This one is called Focus, because he did it to you again. It's no longer a blur (you-black pixel)... but he brought you into focus (sharpening blur) in a mindfuck... still my mind is blown at this concept. I am still trying to wrap my brain around it.. and I think the concept itself might just be mindfucking me.....

I just love how you revisited the musing of him on purpose "so about that mindfuck"

I like how you correct yourself and how you're taken: "it's taken, i mean i'm taken" you are coming to an awareness of your true feelings and how you are captivated by him, his mind, the possibilities and the mystery. It's vulnerable and real and honest-love that.

"Existential innuendo" love this! Want to steal it sometime!!!

I love the 2nd stanza because I read it like you were having a conversation with yourself or a girlfriend.. but also captured the similes. It just brought me back to that twitterpated giddiness from the blur poem. I am so fond of that! That inspires me.. I am going to have to infuse some of my vulnerable girly OCD/second-guessing questioning everything but evaluating everything that took place into my work.. only nothing has physically taken place with this guy... he consumes your mind, and that is deeper yet... so much more to ponder and wonder about.. a virtual playground to play with him... he could f**k you all over the place in there! I love the possibilities of that!!!

"shivering, mate-less, and under-dressed" At first I read "undressed" in my mind.. which goes to show you where my mind jumped with this existential innuendo, but this is just such a juicy smashing together of words. You describe your nerves, your state of being alone and the exposed lack of confidence in not being clothed.. being aware that you feel naked in your mind as he roams around in there on the prowl (I, personally wouldn't mind him crawling around in my mind, but I can relate that sense that in the exposure of him existing there, he all of sudden sees all the parts of you, and therefore sees the true depths of you, the flaws and broken parts and the most important parts of you--of course one would feel awkward and under-dressed!)

And then in the 3rd stanza, you submit and succumb...aggghhh "you have to carry me" like I am just mush before you now, you are mindfucking me so bad.

And you died and rose again there? That's the opposite of Romeo and Juliet.. you don't just lie down to die, you bring each other back to life. How fantastically tragic and epic and literally mind-blowing!

I think I dig your thinking perhaps equivalent to or maybe more than your exceptional writing and editing skills! I am totally hooked on this concept of an existential metaphysical mindfuck!!

So interesting thought this brings up, I imagine being mind fucked is even better than being eye-fucked... but I now ponder about times I may have been taken advantage of without having even known it... all of a sudden, I feel awkward and under-dressed.

In this you found a deliciously brilliant way to encapsulate not being able to stop thinking about someone you are infatuated with or just totally hooked on the mystery of knowing who this stranger might be.

Another one of my favorites from you!! Thanks for the invite!!

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Hailey Juliet

3 Months Ago

Alexa, woooow! Thank you soo much for the lengthy, lovely, and in-depth review. I can't tell you h.. read more
Alexa Apothic Red

3 Months Ago

You're welcome Hailey! It's always my pleasure!! You and I are peas in a pod-I did the exact same th.. read more

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