falling apart...

whole,

in love,

carefree,

beautiful.

 

all the things that i used to be,

before you came along and made me fall in love,

with that sweet innocent but dangerous smile and those dreamy blue eyes,

that i could swim in forever.

 

we were so in love that it was like a fairytale.

it seemed so perfect.

you drew me in like when a fisher puts bait on his hook,

i was yours.

 

i remember your sweet smell,

your touch when we would hug.

your kiss,

i remember it all too well.

 

i thought that i had finally found the one that i would be with forever.

turned out i was wrong.

i hoped from the begining that we would make it last.

because i loved you so much.

 

when you ended it i didnt believe it at first,

i thought maybe i was having a nightmare.

but now that i know it was real i wish it would have been a nightmare,

because that was better than this.

 

i froze, just like a sculpture.

frozen in time, then i herd the quietest yet most horrifying sound ever.

my heart was broken.

shattered into a million pieces by you.

 

the one i thought i loved and thought felt the same way.

the tears began to roll down my once hapy face.

i gripped my chest as though if i let go i would die.

but i eventually had to let go.

 

now i walk around like a zombie,

falling apart,

cold,

numb.

 

no emotion showing on my face.

you took it all away.

my life,

my heart.

 

i hear people talk about it all the time,

how i once was beautiful and full of life,

how i was so nice and would do anything to help others,

how i was me.

 

some people have asked me what happened to the old me,

where i have gone,

all i can say is,

i dont know.

 

i used to care about what others thought in a good way.

i didnt want my name to have a bad image.

now i dont even try,

i just get up move through the daily motions and go back to sleep.

 

no time for wasting time on people,

i use too much energy just living.

my parents ask me what happened to their once joyful daughter,

all i can say is she fell in love.

 

im not even sure anymore,

who this beautiful, caring, joyful, full of life person is people talk about.

she looks like i used to but i still dont know.

i feel like im on my death bed.

 

wasting away to nothingness.

all because of you.

all because i fell in love.

all because.