Chapter 1

-NIL-

I want to be strong.

                     I want to be smart.

I want to be rich.

 

               I want to be cool

I want to be famous

No matter who we are, we are always wanting something in life.

I guess I wanted to be someone good, someone that everyone looks up to.

                      But I stopped.

After all, everything comes with a sacrifice…

To gain something, one must first lose something.

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Chapter 1: Great failure

What`s this? Tears are coming out of my eyes. I try to hold back my tears. But it’s futile, I can`t stop crying. After all, It`s way too painful for me to lock this sadness in my heart.

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What did I work so hard for?

Argh…Argh…Arghhhh!

Why, just why?

Sigh*

I clench my fist in anger. I want to scream at the top of my voice, but I hold myself back because I don’t want others to hear me vent out my anger. So instead, I take a deep breath and open my fists. Then. I stare at my hands.

It`s empty, just like me. 

HAHA.HAHA

 

I laugh at how pathetic I am, while covering my face with my hands.

it`s so frustrating to know that this is as far as I can go… I guess in the end some people are just not cut out for certain things…

Nah, who am I kidding?

I don`t want to give up, I cry even more. I don`t want these years of hard work to be wasted…

After all, I worked hard every day. When everyone was playing outside, smiling and laughing, having so much fun. I trained and trained. Even when I felt like giving up, I trained. Even when thoughts like “what’s wrong with one day of rest” came, I never stopped training.

I worked so hard, too hard even… But for what? What do I have to be proud of now?

I lost in Nationals. I lost in life. 

I have no friends, because I ignored them to train or study.

 What was I thinking?

Just because my brother accomplished it with ease, doesn’t mean that I can do the same.

Why did I even try something so foolish in the first place?

That`s obvious I wanted to prove the world that I can do it too.  Partly, because I wanted value in life. But mostly because I hated it so much. Everyone- my parents, my once friends, and strangers kept on saying the same thing. ”Why can`t you be like your brother?”

Hey, I tried. I did everything that I could.  But all I got was my useless black belt.

And now my life is in ruin.

And this process of questioning repeated for a few days.

I cried my eyes out and now the tears stopped flowing, but my eyes definitely hurt...

 

I am alone in this world, after all my parents don’t care about me one bit.  They live me alone as long as I fulfilll my duties. Luckily for me, it’s the school holidays, so I don’t need to go to school in this pathetic state, yet. As for that glorious brother of mine, the one that everyone revere, is too busy doing whatever he can to make a name for 

himself in this world. Oh, and even if he was free, he probably couldn`t care less about me…

Crack, crack, crack.

Strange, something`s cracking. But my bones are still perfectly intact, all 206 bones. Maybe micro fractures from training, but nothing more significant than that.

I see, something inside has broken... 

Author's Note

Will this is just a teaser

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[Peter Damian]

We don't see the pain the sacrifice involved and the hard work. But if success was easy it would not really be success and we would not want it as much