Gently do away with You!?

 If I could I would tell you I felt your pain.

I wonder if you felt the same.

When she spoke the words that made my whole body burn

We were young and scared

Just baby’s our self’s

Your grand mama would have had my a*s for bringing you here

 

I wish I did

Now I’m just counting the years

Wishing you were here instead of my eyes filling with tears

You would have been around six years old

If so I wouldn’t be sitting here contemplating, how you could be so beautiful

All when you never even lived

 

Son or daughter I beg you please forgive your father

Your mother too, I couldn’t imagine how the fear overpowered her

You know us well, you know at night I look to the sky and pretend the stars are your eyes

You know we gave up the love of our lives, so we didn’t have to grow up in nine months time

 

It’s ironic I know, but nothing else would suffice

When I lie awake at night wondering why I didn’t try to save your life

Why I wouldn’t stand by your Mothers side,

Why she lied when she said she would gently do away with your life   

How could I think you could gently do away with a life?

You see the mess we made don’t you

Up in the sky looking down on me with tears in my eyes

You well know I’ll have you in my arms all in due time

Reviews

[Barbara Walker]

The heartache is in all your words and my heart ached with the sorrow of your heart. The sorrow, regret and love is in every line.
"How could I think you could gently do away with life?"-the unworldly youth realizes maturity.

[hogan]

I can relate to this, something similar happened to me thirty years ago, all I can say is that the old saying time heals, is very nearly true. Your emotions come through in this piece, not a pleasant read, personally, due to stirred memories of the past, but important to say. If you wish look at a piece of mine titled The first time.

[Barbara Walker]

This left me speechless. Growing up we wonder how we could have thought and done the things we did. So much regret in this piece. Gently do away with a life? I am glad values have brought up this question. Spiritual growth is evident in this piece.

[tamsin]

This is very sad. Thanks for sharing another great piece of writing.

[Michael of Gilead]

It's nice to see a mans pov....usually we are told its not your body so shut up

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

Very sad yet written so elegantly. A great piece.

[mandy]

oh, j, that was a magnificent write,,you described your feelings so eloquently!

[Poison Ivy]

i agree, a beautiful piece.

[GypsyAlien3303]

Sad but beautiful... You really captured the emotion:)

[Kelsey]

This made me tear up. It's so powerful, so full of emotion. I enjoyed this and the fact that you had the strength to write about it. Wonderful work, and thank you for sharing such a personal piece.