Meant To Be

at this point, I was very confused on whether or not to take Matt back.

I feel like it's almost a waste of my time to ask,

Because I've wondered this same thing so often in the past.

I always ask why, what is it that's so wrong with me?

What is it that I'm missing that men want to see?

"Dear Diary," I write, and record my every thought,

But I never get an answer, and always manage to move on,

Except with one man, being without him feel so wrong.

We have been apart now for over two years,

And though he wants me back, I can't look past my fears.

He's the only man to whom I gave my whole heart.

Then late one night, with one text message, he tore it all apart.

We've grown up now, and are now able to be friends,

But my heart is not the same, it's unable to mend.

When his skin touches mine, I'm overwhelmed with chills,

And every time we kiss I can't deny the love I still feel.

And when I look in those green, green eyes it's as if all the world is right.

But just as I'm about to give in my mind flashes to that night.

I remember the pain of his abscence, the lonliness I felt,

The long, dreary, empty nights when I wished it was me he held.

It's been too long, I think, we are both so different now,

But another side of me knows we could make it work somehow.

And just when I'm ready to say, ok, and be his girl again,

I don't hear from him for a week or so, and my doubts again set in.

I suppose my only option is to wait it out and see,

Only time will tell if our love was meant to be.

Reviews

[Sweet_pale_cacophony]

I respect a writer when he or she writes so honestly and so straight from heart cause i know it can hurt and take a lot of courage to express yourself with such an open heart..you should always keep this transparency in your poems,it adds a poignant vice to your write.Time heals all pains,quibbles but what remains is a scar...that never heals.

[Steph's_romantic_myster..]

I love your poems because they express your feelings very well. They make me feel the hurt, joy and love you do. You take me on an emotional rollercoaster with each word. You are Awesome!

[cfix]

WOW this one really tugs the heart. I like this alot. I like yoru rhyme scheme. Well written and expressed.

[Celeste21]

Such a sad situation in- to let someone in and they continue to disappoint you. It's a vicious cycle that will continue if you allow yourself to succumb to their selfish games.