1.10.10

Does leaving someone mean you never loved them?

Why couldn’t you be more loving? Or caring? Or understanding?

It’s not all your fault, but it is for the most part.

You wouldn’t change.

Couldn’t change.

& in all honesty, I hope you find someone to suit your needs.

Still.

I wonder if we would have made it, if only you treated me better.

Because I know we had our good times, the bad just out weighed them.

You say I never loved you.

The truth is, I did more than anyone or anything else.

I was crazy about you.

I just couldn’t stay & be treated the way you treated me.

It’s sad that I still wonder if you’re doing good or not.

I shouldn’t care.

But.

I do.

I don’t want a relationship, that’s not what this is all about.

I just wish for one instance you would realize that I’m not immature.

I wish you would realize you did indeed treat me like s**t.

That’s why I had to leave, not because I didn’t ‘love’ you.

Maybe one day we’ll cross again & things could be different.

But, I doubt it.

I’ve made my path & you probably hate me for it.

The ‘if only’ s play through my head.

But they don’t matter & shouldn’t.
It’s days like this that I hate.

Whenever I begin to miss you, even just a little bit.

Author's Note

Comments? Thoughts? Review?

Reviews

[Amber "Victoriomantic" ..]

I really like this piece. It's very raw, and honest. I can relate with parts of it, too, only he left me. Sometimes you have to know when enough is enough, even if you still love the person. If this happened to you (and I get the feeling it did), then you are very strong to be able to walk away. I hope this provided you with some catharsis :]
It was definitely an enjoyable read, either way.

[Joe]

I can really relate to this! wonderful job!

[Jeff Loquist]

man, there is a LOT of truth here. You write very raw and very honest...really diggin' that.

[LilMissJP]

I like this piece, and am glad you made your own path. It sounds like he was oblivious to some of the most important things, which is sad.

[Tracie Skarbo]

hmmm I am glad you walked away... you will find better men then this...it sounds like you hooked up with a boy who didn't know any better...great show of your emotion and disappointment.

[Micah_s5]

Easily understood from the beginning, shows the better of letting go when you might not want to. Easily relate to this in ways, I like it.