The best policy

The dance
A ballroom
Masks and hearts at arm length
I'll declare
I'm a man bent and centered around ego
Long sentiments of past detriments
I stew in a heavy mixture of me
I'm not the center
You
The ever present
The ever evident
I do not take you for granted
For all we've been through
I don't mean to over shadow
That which you mean to me
No excuses
I preach an accord
Solemn
Bitter
Stubborn
Feelings genuine
Beguiled by my own
Sense of...
Or rather
My own selfish pride
I'm so sorry
Love
Longing
Self acceptance
I never sought
At times
Never thought
I never wanted you to have it hard
Torn thoughts
Heavy hearts
You've found it hard
I wasn't easy
You have thoughts
I don't blame you
This is not about me
I know this
Love you in extremis
A litany of whiskey
Lost lies
Promises meant to redeem me
I love when you pray
Subtle hints of attrition
When will he begin an then
The wait
I do fail
I've failed you
Sunsets in neon blue
I've pressed
You've pressed back
Blunt
Honest
True
I've scarred crossed your heart
Apologies
Promises
Swears to accell
Its not that its me
Its that I've failed
To be the best me
I'm so sorry