Wanted

The feeling of being wanted by someone but not having it

Standing in the distance so far away
Looking at the reflection in the mirror
Seeing the constant reminders of the past jump out to me and pull me in slowly
Feeling the memories fade away slowly like a forgotten dream 
Forgetting what we ever had slowly and pushing away the people I care 
Using the wrong judgement and feelings to at least smile
Letting my heart break slowly like a record letting it fall to the ground so fast so easily
Feeling the love go away while the hate and sadness continue to corrupt who I am
Watching you go away slowly seeing the hope that I once help on too slip away into thin air
Turning my head at the first sign of love and locking away my heart so that nobody can see it
Feeling the unwanted burden on me slowly get heavier and heavier bringing me down slowly
Regretting the mistakes I made with you and trying to get you back only to fail again and again
Letting what we used to have go away so slowly 
Letting the hurt and the tears cloud my mind slowly 
Trying to give love one more chance but giving up before it even tries
Shivering quietly trying to fake a smile so nobody can see the real me
Feeling the blade of the knife cut me slowly and gently letting me bleed to death.

Author's Note

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