Am I that bad

True..

We sit at our table

Eating lunch and laughing

From a distance we seem fine

But you don't know half of it

I force myself to smile as you pull out the pass

You don't even apologize anymore

The three of you take your stuf and stand up

Laughing and giggling as you walk upstairs

Out of the lunchroom

You say it's for extra credit

Ya right

I turn to whoevers left at the table

They all are staring at me

I shrug and laugh it off

But on the inside I am far from it

I am past the point of saddness

Now I am angry

One of you used to stay behind

Now you all go

I asked to tag along once

You were much to quick to inform me

That it was you three only

I let it drop

This is seeming to familiar

Everyone else smiles and laughs as we talk

But we are all thinking the same thing

Waiting

The school is putting in couches and vending machines

To bad you won't be here

You will be with your precious extra credit

Filing gradebooks

I have other friends

But you guys were supposed to be the best

And you were

But then...

I don't know what

All I know is that I feel like a charity case

Like I'm your job

Well heres a little message from me

I don't need you

So join in or f**k off

Author's Note

My first poem that is 100% true

Reviews

[Gone]

I so feel your pain in this poem. Strange how our worst wounds come frome those we hold closest. When longstanding friends turn on you like this the reason is not as important as the rejection itself. I had friends who did the same. I met them at my school reunion and I could see they had carried the guilt all their lives. That was until I set them free.

Rejection is a double edged sword which causes as much damage to the weilder as it does to the victim. Forgiveness is the key to unlocking the pain. That is not to say that you maintain relationships which damage you, just that you forgive within yourself.

[Sweets]

It's sad how everyone around us is having fun and enjoying their time and we're in darkness, and it's worse to know that they don't even care about us. It's just that people are being selfish now adays, not everyone. Just some people.
This is such a beautiful poem written straight from the heart. You described your feelings and thoughts in a clear way. Great work!

[astoundinglyattractive]

this is one of your best poems...
and one i connect to.
and i love it...
you should submit this in my contest~

This is great, very long, but it has meaning to it.

[Tate Morgan]

Very good I like the poetic way you write it is full of emotion.You know you teach people how you are willing to be treated by your response to their actions .I like this .Many times in school kids can be cruel as if they are selling their own religion and you aren't a member so you cant belong it is all tripe don't worry.It comes back to you if you AREN'T WILLING TO TAKE IT

[QC]

what happened with your friends? This leaves me wondering what they did, why they left you, why you feel like a charity case. Why, why, why? This is what a truly fantastic poem should do to someone, make them ask why and want for more.

it's terrible that this actually happened to you, but man, was this a fantastic write. :DD

[Cynthia]

I can feel the emotions of your poem! The pain, and oh god, thats VERY real, and I can tell it, its sucha real life poem. Well, other say it used to be feel in high school, and oh, I ahvent go there yet, so, I dont know how to help, but I really hope you will feel better in no time.

[Ashley Myers]

ahhh, the very familiar feelings of high school. i feel the pain really. i feel for you! but id those "friends" only see you as a charity case and push you to the side, then theyre not your real friends anyways. Find ones that will appreciate you and what you can bring to the table in a friendship. theres a difference between having the title friend and being a true friend, and a true friend would never leae you behind....for anybody!!

[SOUL LESS]

You know what you've given me an idea. A story. Try to induce a lil rhythm in your poems. The feeling is expressed fine,

[SpokenWord]

lol very cute poem, it was a mini rant of truth and the ending is perfect. Way to set them straight.