Self Portrait

A pseudo-guide to a reckless mind

My ego was made to be palped

But I don't think anyone knows about it

Deep desire to be applauded

Feeling lost whenever admired

Do I even believe those positive words?

Or is my trust reflecting my thoughts?

I can't even properly analyze it

Since my bias is all that surrounds me

The lack of certainty is what is haunting

To be someone you're not deciphering

Your mind is the one thing that follows all your life

Yet you can't seem to notice its lines

The worst of it all is pretending you're not

Completely stuck in this sort of mob

Unaware of your organs' sob

Because they're part of a system

That won't accept to listen

To its terms and conditions.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Hardest person to impress. Ourselves.
"Do I even believe those positive words?
Or is my trust reflecting my thoughts?
I can't even properly analyze it"
The above lines. Most writers, painters and singers must find the confident to create. I enjoyed the poetry. Left something for the reader to think about. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[wordman]

self doubt,ego,and the system ,do we ever know where the mind is

[hypochondrita]

It is certainly a tricky thing...

[Anthony Wayne]

"The lack of certainty is what is haunting" - My favourite line in his poem. I like how relevant this is. You've made this relatable and put your own style to it. Keep writing, this is a very nice piece.

[hypochondrita]

Thank you very much!

[Too Poetic]

"Because they're part of a system
That won't accept to listen
To its terms and conditions."

The last lines where like an amazing ending to a great movie, this is wonderfully written, a very relatable poem, definitely one of the best ones I've read on this site so far, im looking forward to reading more of your work, I've read the poem about a dozen times and each time as amazing as the first. Great work indeed!

[hypochondrita]

Thank you, that makes me really happy.

[JainieJane]

Self doubt to be something is always everyones weary and to be admired is something not everyone likes to admit.

[GalaxyGhost]

"The lack of certainty is what is haunting" is the line I like so much! I don't know why, but it really stands out!

[hypochondrita]

Thanks, glad you liked it!

[Davidgeo]

"palped" ha... how very French of you. Or do you mean an appendage on an invertebrate?

I like this but, I might be biased.

[hypochondrita]

Nop.. I mean it in the touched/felt kinda way. Thank you, bloody. I like your hat.

[Davidgeo]

That is the French etymology of that word... to stroke gently.

Do your homework.

[hypochondrita]

I know that. I just tried letting you know i wasnt talking about an appendage

[Davidgeo]

But of course you did my dear.... of course you did. Ugh.