red lake red flag

im sitting in a corner
with a bullet buried 
somewhere in my head
believe you me, ive no idea
how i am not dead.

i heard the shot
i saw the flash

im glad i lived
in that split second
i thought about lots of things
like my kid
i want to see my kid.

i want so see him on his first date
i was to see him graduate

all i have to do is
get to the phone
call for help
i think ill try
-
nope, not even close
too weak
im sorry, 
i fell,
slumped sideways
now i see my puddle of blood
spilling from my head, 
the well.

my great crimson expanse
spanning the bathroom floor
and out and under the door.
i faintly hear the pounding
of fists, 
doors rattle
cling to their hinges

red lake red flag
i hope they get here soon
the doors
they open with a boom
but i fear they are too late
this rooms gone black
this room is cold
this room is still
this room
my tomb.