to stay alive

random poem I wrote at 7:30 in the morning because I couldn't sleep

It is pain that allows us to feel
as we stay in a place where we must hurt
to feel alive.
Existence is questioned
by us who live here.
reality is nothing but a game
there is no reward and we cannot win.
Our minds challenge our lives
as we spiral in and out of weaving lies.
We know no truths we've felt no love.
When one of us is gone we continue forward.
There is no in between
it is this.
Only this one life we have.
Once removed from it there is nothing.
We bleed to show we are real.
We follow to feel as though we lead.
Forever walking towards nothing.
We slowly fall apart
and as we fade away
life carries on
as though we were never really there.
We have broken ourselves.
We have destroyed all that we've had.
All to keep walking.
All to stay alive.
do you know what it is to die before you're dead?