If Only Today was Eternity

Vinny, my deepest curiosity is what you think of me, what you've thought of me through this all.

Oh the things I long to say.
Of the smiles that found me today.
Of the joy and the longing that’s always been there.
But say it?
face it,
I’m just too scared.

What to do, what to do, what to do.
If only I knew

I screwed up it all, but at least I’ll admit.
Disaster and sadness- there’s always a bit.
And once I could make it right.
And determined to fight
And named myself the culprit....
Everything changed

I had stupid thoughts, its true.
But known not the real issue.
That night I cried and cried.
I died.
Thereby opening my eyes.

What, you think my imperfections would’ve won?
Immaturity, insecutiry, working on, almost gone.
Priorities properly rearanged
And that’s that.

Yet as it turns out, I’m too late.
You treat me like fate
thinks we should have never met.
We’re beyond repair...
It appears.
But no more tears and despair
Make a bet that i’ve accepted.
But am allowed to have regrets.


Everybody has their way to learn.
There’s just one thing for which I yearn.
And that’s for you to know the truth.
For you to know that I’m okay:

I’m in a love that’s here to stay.
The thoughts of you don’t go away.
Images rarely fray.
So thankful for hugs these past days.
Your existence makes me so gay.

I pray that this can say it right.
If only words could say
If only words could say
If only words could say
All the simple things smilesfeelingslongingswordsheartracingsprayerssearchingsadmiringslovings
of today.

Reviews

[AutumnRose]

What a beautiful flow your choice of words give off.
it is simply stunning.

It describes what I have just done! :.(

[Dug]

this i can relate to.
i've screwed up plenty a relationship just by being me.
it's nice to know that i'm not alone in having done so.

(also, nice use of meter. flows quite well.)