Nightmare

I can't seem to wrap my head around it. I know how I should feel but I can't convince myself to actually do it.

It feels like I’m in a waking nightmare

I wish it was because you weren’t here

Sadly, it is the opposite in fact

Being around you now, I’m really trying not to react

It’s like your lying right to my face

You might not think I saw, but I did. What a disgrace

You played me for a fool and just used me from the start

I put myself out there and you toyed with my heart

The worst part about it, is you don’t even know

Despite all the anger and sadness inside, I can’t let it show

Why would I give you more power over me?

You don’t care for me; I’m starting to see that more clearly

I can’t help but feel that, I’m not good enough, at least not for you

Maybe it’s my weight, but I hope that isn’t true

I wish you would just talk to me and fill me in

I care for you so much but even that wears thin

The struggle I face each and every day

I want to wake up and not feel this way

To see you laugh I want to ask why?

Why you use me, I mean am I too nice a guy?

If that’s true, I guess I’ll finish last

No, no, no! Not so fast

Maybe I need to flip the script

What if you aren’t good enough for me? Now that’s a trip

I’ve spent so much time and effort to make you like me

To what end? All it has done is to make a sadder version of me

It’s like I revel in my sadness

I mean that sounds like utter madness

If I wasn’t sad and I wasn’t confused

Would my writing have an affect on you?

I need to get out of my head, away from it all.

And maybe wake up from this nightmare, once and for all. 

Reviews

[cbunker]

I enjoyed reading this poem and think it is great.

[Joshua McNay]

Thanks. glad you enjoyed it.

[zaisham9393]

This is so good :)) I loved this :))

[Joshua McNay]

Thanks, it just kind of came to me. I wrote a little and then it just flowed out of me. Glad you enjoy it.