Hate Myself Because Of You

Sat in my truck and jotted this down, after a confusing night. Just lost...

She make me hate me

vision's constantly clouded, unable to see

I'm being used as a pawn for comfort

Look into my eyes and see that I'm hurt

I wish it was a physical pain that I am feeling

My wounds are inside, I feel them screaming

Why do I do this to me?

You think I'd have more respect for me

She was texting someone else while sitting across from me!

Would it be better if I didn't see, or I didn't know?

How did I know? She straight up told so

This back and forth I have with her is going to end up killing me

I don't know why I let another person do this to me

One minute i'm fine, the next I'm not

It's because of you my insides rot. 

I'm starting to think I'm basically powerless

That my feelings are just meaningless

But that can't be true

Unless my feelings are just meaningless to you. 

I mean you have to know where my head is at

We've been around each other long enough, you have to know that

If you do, let's be real it's actually kind of worse

But then again listen to me, it's like I'm beating a dead horse. 

Sat in my truck and jotted this down. 

I wanted to cry as I broke it all down.

My feelings I just want out of my head.

Last night I really thought, it'd be better if I was dead.

It's just I don't know what to do anymore

Why am I even trying for!?

I shouldn't let another person make me feel this way about me

But she makes me hate me.