FadeA Poem by jexpoem I wrote after wandering around downtown vancouver
Previous Version This is a previous version of Fade. Varicose Fade
Fell down into a metallic world, Disillusioned faces staring back at me, I’m a stranger in a strange land Red lights blast the sky into nothingness, As dark visions of you fill my mind, I embrace your memory as you fade away A past full of happiness and sorrow, Eventually turns into anger and fear and hatred, And now becomes this present day tragedy Walls and buildings of nothingness drown my mind, As a fallen angel sees the fake delights, Provided with the prick of a needle on bare flesh Euphorically nightmarish delusions trace points, A constellation on my arms, Signifying stories of escape and fatal endings Many others join me, But none speak to me, For I am forever alone Cold wet nights beat my body into numbness, As once again a story begins, Forever I travel up and down life’s eternal spiral staircase This city that was once good, Now is forever a monster, A living prison of concrete and steel The poison in me finally takes effect, A forever enduring feeling of acceptance, As varicose veins are altered to reach my conclusion An ending full of discovery, downfall, and the final descent into a painful afterlife
Aggressive Fade
Bloodied nails scrape along the wall, Blood-red eyes witness as silent torture is committed Crazed hands crawl over a silent body, As once more a rhythmic tango begins Weak frail hands struggle to prevent unholy violation, As once more the aggressor strikes In a drugged up weakened state she watches in horror, As once more pleasure is derived, From the most vicious of deeds As what began an hour ago still continues, Alcohol and drugs fueling rage driven lust In the most vile and revolting of cheap downtown motel rooms, The most terrible of injustices is committed against so innocent a mind As a last attempt to at least reduce this horrific sensation, She looks out the window to the corpse of a stranger Undoubtedly a death caused by the needle Peaceful Fade In an unnamed grave, Rests the body of a young man Though I did not know him, Feelings of an unusual bond do develop That one night our eyes met through the window, It almost felt as if we both knew what the other was going through, In its own strange sick and twisted way Though different events occurred to each of us that night, We both suffered a form of violation As the bright sun casts the front of the grave in shadows, I leave flowers on the grave, Hoping that he found what he was looking for
Past Fade Bell rings, Lunch starts, I swim amidst a sea of walkers Up the steps, In front of the Music room, I stop Panic and anxiety hold me down, As I drown in memories, Reminders of a previous school and a previous life slowly kill my mind Down the steps, Quickly now, Can’t stop can’t stop can’t stop can’t stop Breathing speeds up, I slow down, My mind once again goes black, A grim reaper’s shadow hangs over my sanity A beautiful key, To an ugly door, Opening my mind to all past mistakes I quickly walk to my usual place, Cold floor against a cold locker In my worst day, One of the last days of school, I choke back sobs as tears stream down my face Outside the sky is bright blue, The sun shines through the windows, But inside my soul it always remains cold I explore the memories, Attempting to find the missing link between them and this school, I find none Hours Later Home, My safe place, My sanctuary The T.V. blasts gunshots past my ears, While soothing music fills my head I patiently wait while more memories stream in, Though they are not my own Vivid pictures Knife in a dark room, A subway train passes by A dirty hotel room, Weak hands struggle against hands so strong A needle sliding into an arm, Stories and wonderful imaginings produced through constellations Weariness sets in, I shuffle off to bed, Letting my own memories kill me © 2009 jexFeatured Review
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