(Un)Stable

The loss of a family member cause great impact on the people close and even some far. This impact leads people down different paths than ones they once imagined themselves taking.

(Un)Stable

Looking back, I regret so many choices:

not learning the language

not spending more time

not focusing on what was important

not listening

not being grateful enough

Not doing so many things.

but I cannot change Anything

not Anymore

it’s too late

He’s gone.

now he rests up in the

Heavens;

as I am left down on earth.

I am happy in some ways�"

He is reunited with others of

the past.

He is part of me

and he will Always be;

Always in my heart.

But everything else has fallen from this:

the man I look up too is

Crumbling

the woman I look up to is

Struggling

the girl who has helped me along the way is

Crying

the wife of Him is

Doleful

no one is Stable like before

I am not Stable

I hide behind a mask

I never showed my Emotions

but since He Left,

I no longer find joy like before

I no longer think straight

I no longer eat like before.

I no longer sleep peacefully.

I no longer am Stable

I cry in the night

I blame myself

I bury myself in work

I put a smile on my face everyday

I wake up Dreading what is to Come

I am not Stable

few know the Truth�"

but even then

they don’t know Everything.

call me Insane

call me Cowardly

call me Dramatic

call me Crazy

it’s all the same:

Words

they no longer hurt me

I am not Stable enough

to acknowledge them.

I thought I just lost Him

but I lost more

I lost myself along

the Way.

I am Unstable