How can the heart not get attached?

About a girl one minute loving a guy, then the next hating him for ignoring her.

As I pick the flower petals off
Of the dead flowers you gave me
Another salty tear runs down my face
I wonder why do I love you?
I hate that I care so much about you
When you probably do not even think twice about me
I know we should not even be
Is that why I always think of you so?
To be a bad to the bone, to break the rules?
I do not know what we even are
Yet we are so far from each other
I sometimes want you hear, near my side
While half of the time I want to smack you in the face
When will I ever know what is going on?
How can the heart not get attached,
when someone tells you they love you,
but then takes it back?
And then gives their love to someone else
Who isn't even real?
I keep going back to you, why?
These horrible feelings every minute of each day
Must change into positive ones
How can I keep going on,
pretending I am fine?
When deep down inside
I don't think anyone has this much pain
I am just bewildered by my delirious delusions.

 

Author's Note

i wanted to write this quick to get over it. lol but i edited it. tell me what ya think.

Reviews

[Michael X]

this is passionately expressed to such metaphorical tragedy of the broken
kind, the reader can't help but feel your words, and the rose petals
falling to the ground, just like the emotional feeling of being tossed away,
a fond love that is no longer but now a pain, or hole in the heart
is the image I get, clearly. and exceptionally sincere, wow, awsome job

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

the cycles of love are thorns deep in the side~ love in youth is the most painful when it goes dark and silent because it is so new~so fresh~ the wound is rubbed raw with every thought of the beloved~

[Jeff]

What you've expressed here is clearly normal once you fall in and out of love. We've all been there.

[An owl on the moon]

Your write delves so clearly into those crazy emotions that grip us when in love, and out of love... The confusions and wanderings of the mind are so poignant here!