I was the one chasing you

I hope this flows well. Enjoy.

I am extremely tired, swaying back and forth with droopy eyelids
From the drug amphetamine I took was wearing off
Carrying packed boxes from our old bedroom
I rushed down the stairs, tumbling on a few steps
Tripping down the stairs, dropping items everywhere
I snapped my neck and hit my spine on the bottom of our stairs
I screamed for your name until I could not breathe anymore
My heart was racing and pounding too fast until I fell
Then it finally stopped when I closed my watery eyes
Laying brokenly on our cold wooden floor
   When I was falling I remember what I was thinking of,
Only wishing of you to come to save me through our door
The drug speed made me have insomnia
And I miss you so badly I can not even dream of sleeping
How can I go back into our bed without you here?
I was already up for 81 hours only thinking of what we used to be
So many thoughts running through my mind
I was all alone when you moved out of our home
You just left our house key on our brown kitchen table
Took all of your belongs and left without speaking a word to me
I tried to stop and beg for you to say, but you kept on walking to your car
Digging your car keys into the starter
I cried, begged, pleated for you to stay near
Giving you 100 reasons for why we were meant to be
Instead of listening to me you turned up the car radio
And dialed another girls number on your cell phone
While speeding off into the brisk moon light
I ran back into our place slamming the door shut, not locked
I took more of the drug speed
Turned up the tv, singing sad love songs
I know you will never return any of my missed calls nor texts
No matter how many times I tried
I want to move, I have to get out of this place, I know I can not keep waiting
Everything in our, I mean my, home reminds me of our memories
When you're gone my whole body feels sluggish even with speed
My heart and soul feels empty, lost and bewildered
I am incomplete without our love
This is just so messed up, and unexpected
I miss your scent, the way you used to hold me in bed
Please tell me you changed your mind
That all of a sudden you love me again, everything will be fine
That you'll never, ever hurt and make me cry my bloodshot eyes out again
I am tired of packing to leave my huge home
Stop hiding, come back to kiss me
Even though I am used to this pain, I do not want to be alone
My love is dying inside from your broken promises
Why all of a sudden you ignored me then walked out our door?
Tired of waiting and staying up for you to come to me
Time is ticking and I want to stop chasing my dream of you
I wonder if you think about me as much as I ponder about you
If you only knew how much I looked forward to waking up
To gaze into your handsome brown eyes snuggling in bed
Then hearing each others heartbeats
When we put our heads on each others chest
Laying warmly while we softly sleep

Reviews

[Sherbs Dreaming Tree Of..]

Very good :) definately one of the best i've seen
Check out some of my poetry we have similar styles :)

[Paradoxical]

very emotional and heart-wrenching. I like how it's sort of a realllly long run-on sentence, and I think that portrays the message really well. Overall, great word choice and sad story, love it!