Everything feels like nothing

Trying to out speed my issues

Just finished smoking my flavored cigarette
I'm driving around in the middle of the lonely night
I just had a fight with myself
I dunno what to else think of
Cars lights flash into my mirror
Making me squint my puffy eyes
I cried out all my tears
The salty taste of my tears still linger on my tongue
I have too many fears to show
Speeding down this highway
I dunno where else to go
My mistakes are going in circles in my mind
My teenage life is twisted
Where ever the time and wind takes me
I must go, where there are no worries in my mind
Not knowing what is happening in my life
I wonder what I'm doing
Being on your own is confusing
I was emotional abused from someone
Now with no one to hold
I sing depressing love songs
Going over the speed limit by far
Turning up my radio
I'm ready for a better change
But in my life I feel tired and bewildered
I'm fading into the brisk moon night onto this highway
I keep my memories and worries locked inside
Since none of my friends nor family care enough
Just thinking of people who offended me, especially him
Sucks the light and hope out of my head
I still keep his clothes around me at all times
Just to smell his sweet scent
Even though, I know his eyes tell lies
I cannot undo what is going on in my messed up life
All the pain makes me speed even faster, and faster 
Confusion is locked inside my head
I need someone to help me from myself
More and more every night
Looking at my teddy bear I placed on the passenger seat
I know I have no one
I feel so tired my eyes are droopy
Thinking, I drift into the left lane
Luckily, I pull the wheel with my right hand and everything is ok
My tires are messed up
Every time I go above 80 mph my wheel shakes
I don't care, I just don't care anymore
I have my left hand twirling my hair
While my right hand is on the steering wheel
Trying to not care
Because I always know someone, something is just going to hurt me again
I just wanna speed
I don't really care anymore about anything

Author's Note

I hoped you loved this piece a lot!!

Reviews

[Legacy]

Ashley,

Driving in the middle of a lonely night, fighting amongst one’s self, …empting the gas tank along with a few tears.

Thoughts racing down an empty stretch of road

Mistakes accelerate through these twists and turns

Signs to nowhere, exits of teenage life passing by

Your own path, paved yet barren unable to read

Alone with a traveling bear racing ahead leaving the cares

Sorry, just having a bit of fun – hope you didn’t mind?

This was a wonderful read (pardon the irony).

Thank you for allowing me to travel with you, I so enjoyed the wind in our hair and the worries in the rear.

Have A Great Night

Legacy

[Vanessa Rico]

I know many people have felt this way before...you capture the essence of the emotion perfectly!

[Sweet & Tender Hooligan]

I liked it a lot. Very emotional and vivid. A powerful read.

[Miss Lizzie Emily]

I liked it. Non constrictive, just letting the mind flow and release itself.
I know the feeling well too. We're all nihilists at heart.

[Jeff]

Great piece with a great flow. We've all been here a time or two.

[Tate Morgan]

Oh the broken heart is nothing fun I started writing because of just such a thing

[The Pack]

I see words here that everyone has had roll through their lives at one time or another. You create a well carved scene in motion that takes us down the path of questions effecting so many. Nice.

[Bridget Mcmaken]

The plot of this was very, the story behind the poem was clear and well thought of. This a great piece. The poem flows nicely you have written this very, very well. It has a nice point of view on it. Awesome work, I love this.