Sleeping for awhile

As I lay my head against my detergent filled pillow
I wipe my tears on the pillow case
Hearing the time tick, tick loudly
I'm too dizzy to get up off of my messy, lonely bed
I don't want to get any more tissues
My waste basket is already filled up with wet paper towels
I keep a green towel next to my bed
Not when I climax nor have sex
I use the towel to wipe away my uncontrollable salty tears
I'm even too lazy to stretch my arm to get the towel
Therefore, my tears fall against the pillow case
I can't leave my twin sized bed
I'm too depressed and stressed to even want to breathe
I try to open the window by my bed to get some fresh air
Hearing the bird chirping makes me go out of my mind
I dunno whats wrong with me
All this anxiety is getting to me
It's getting harder each day and night to be truly happy
I try to leave my bed to have some chocolate and coffee
But the happiness only last for a few moments
Blasting music helps me escape my reality
I know my dreams are unreal
I wait for you to come here
Please save my soul and heart from myself
Even though time ticks fast
I'm tired of waiting
I go back into my warm body imprinted bed
I'm waiting, thinking, stressing, worrying about issues
I don't have enough energy to want to go to school nor volunteer nor work
For the rest of the week, month, no make that for awhile
I close my wet brown eyes
I'm too bewildered to even care to open my eyes anymore.

Reviews

[Megan]

"I wait for you to come here
please sve my soul and heart from myself"

"For the rest of the week, month, no make that for awhile
I close my wet brown eyes
I'm too bewildered to even care to open my eyes anymore."
^nice way to end it.
I really liked those lines.... and this poem. even though it may be perceived as "depressing", it really is a form of expression. About someone who just doesn't have the energy to do anything anymore, who just wants him back...who just goes to sleep because there's no more energy. who's just lonely...
good read.

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

Such a great write, very emotional and heartfelt:)

Yas

[Chris]

Ashley! You made me frown. >:[
I enjoyed reading this very much. You have such discriptive talent, its like you are painting with words.
Definitely keep it up. :] I enjoy reading the pictures you write?
It makes sense to me.

[Midnight_Mystery]

nicely done! :)

[Jeff]

Very good read.

[Tate Morgan]

Good sleep comes less often as we age and less of it I think IO can relate to a sleepless time like this