Too much on the membrane

As boredom takes over me
It controls my body like some type of misused drug
I sit here and ponder about my life
I’m grateful and blessed with my lucky life
Why do I still feel miserable?
Is it because of others?
I adore you, why do you ignore me?
I know you're not going to call nor text
Although I keep checking my phone
          I am going nowhere rapidly
Taking up space in this vacant town
Sleepless nights
Are caused by twisting and turning on a wet bed filled with my tears
Restless days
Due to working so much to pay for school
             My heart feels paralyzed
Oh love...
My feelings are numb
My beating heart has no reason to beat anymore
Nothing even matters without you
Baffled by what is going on?
              Trying hard to not be concerned
Because I have no clue what to do
Nor who to be with
No sense of direction
What do I even want and can get?
Everything seems so far, out of reach
Tired of always having something on my mind.

Reviews

[Snarfy]

I can always appreciate and enjoy something so personal. Your emotion just seeped through the text and your various methods of emphasis were very effective and tone-changing to ultimately create a heartfelt vortex of expression, frustration, and an intense desire for change.

[Wolfwind Words]

I really like the various topics that flow through this piece. They all are things that can be related to, as they occur quiet often as one travels the journey of life. I like how the title sets us up for the over all theme of the piece and the last line wraps the concept back to the top again. Like a never ending cycle that people are stuck in.
I will say from my own experiences that when the mind is full, everything else seems to attack the emotions in more extreme ways, making life more frustrating. Like the feelings of being overly worried or not worried enough, or overly focused on something or not being focused enough, especially with work or educational matters.
Everything is connected in life. Your poem takes that into effect and brings it with a smooth dynamic flow that sticks in the mind of the reader.

Great Ink!
Wolfie

[A.E. Reed]

I've always loved your writing. It's always so personal and it doesn't rhyme and it doesn't have to because it just flows. I don't know how but it just does. I love how you use different fonts and colours and sizes to emphasize words and phrases. Another wonderful piece. :)

[nicolo]

"It controlls my body like some type of misused drug "-it's 'controls'
I see the the font-changing style of yours FUN. :) perhaps I'll try some font stuff. ahahahaha

As for the poem, I liked the way it started, it started strong. but it kinda changes its power at some parts.

[Winslow Des Totes]

I love the use of color and font size; very thoughtful! Also, you explained depression to a tee and I can honestly relate. Well done, very powerful piece!!

[lovely-livia]

i love the emotions!

[Dinkleman]

Way to express your emotions of the character (whether it be you or a fictional character) in the poem.

[Stephanie Slayer]

beautiful work here

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

Love the structure, flows so well, the questioning and deep thoughts are so well expressed, enjoyed reading greatly:)