Trainwreck

We were a train wreck from the start

Something evoked my heart

No surprise at the ending

I guess I was the one pretending

I have no one to blame

I knew his story

There was something that I felt when i sat beside him

I guess it was something I felt by myself 

He says he doesn't want to break up

I don't want to either

I don't know though how to feel better

There are so many walls

Do i need to stick it out and have faith

Should I just keep flying to the sweet escape

If it was real he would have asked me to stay

Thats the answer

We were a train wreck from the start

I wanted to love him even the dark

I thought we were in this together

I thought we had something real that would last forever

i was a moron from the start

I am usually very smart

How does it feel heart to be played?

He did me as we rode the crimson tide and said he felt raped

I feel used

He calls me up he wants to be raped again

I tell him the family is home and he says he has to go back to work

We were a train wreck from the start that the love I still feel for him is absurd

I won't stay.

I must fly away

The game is no fun to play

At least the players should be having fun

i gave you everything and there is still no fun

I just picked the wrong one

His status says complicated

I was warned and so this ending isn't fated

The love is misplaced

I don't know if it was real I would stay and he wouldn't want me to go away

He don't care

He is never there

I need to stop fantasizing

My heart was romanticizing someone was saving my life for the first time

It felt good when he was between my thighs

The kisses and yes I truly miss him

Who is the him? Just a fragment, just a vision

His wife gets his whole being

I only wanted to be yours and you to be mine

Now I see its foolishness glittering in the light

I am a lover who doesn't know how to fight

I just have to keep moving on and time will erase him from my memory

The bed will no longer smell like him

He doesn't even care

He isn't there

he said he will take notes

for me or the next girl or for the current wife?

He had an angel who would have loved him for life

Despite the dark,yet, we were a train wreck from the start.