My Own Rainbow

Everyone has one. But this is mine.

I feel like my mind is shifting
Into a deep dark era that never existed
Breaking my daily rountine into laziness
Closing my mind, leaving my thoughts twisted.

I cram all my emotions into my pocket
Hoping they will stay there and not break out
Choosing to ignore them and maybe they will leave
But wishing they werent there will send me into doubt.

Sleeping it off, oh another day will come
Hoping in the morning I will awake in another body
With a perfect family and a perfect life
Able to look at others and be rude and snotty.

But who in the world would I be then?
When I have traveled all this way and learned so much
Just to throw it out the window, I dont think so
Even though, I admit, I don't have alot to clutch.

I've made so many enemie's and broke so many hearts
That the world has all but given up on me
I'm surprised my family still holds out a pinkie
To this broken child who just now started to see.

I shouldn't be complaining of coarse
There's still many youngsters going down the wrong road
But there always will be in this messed up world
Just hope the good ones don't stay willowed.

I just saw the light before my own Father did
Or maybe he did see it but chose to stay in the wrong
Taking another line of his cocaine
Inhaling another gust from the bong.

I'm just going to never end up like the ones I came from
Because I'm not giving up before I die
I'd rather endure my lifelong goals and challenges
I will always keep my future nearby.

 

I will keep my head up even if it kills me

because if nobody else does then God says so.

I won't end up in that six foot hole in the ground

So let me just travel along my own rainbow.

Author's Note

random thoughts this evening.

Reviews

[bluessadmood]

oh this mind of mine ..how it wonders around.
what craziness he tells..like going far into the dark
i feel nothing no daily routine..its mach laziness i feel
my mind closing..like all all thoughts very twisted
how i am afraid
like all emotions hiding in my pocket..hope they will never break and show out
wish i ignore them..but then without them ..like i doubt my own self
would like to go into one long sleep..so i wake like someone else
perfect family happy new life..look at others rude and not broken like always
but what shall i be then..its like i have wasted all my life
i worked hard on down the drain..what a waste
i have broken so many hearts..made so many enemies
the world has given up on me
so much hurt so much despair ..but then again i see some hope in these lines..
I'm just going to never end up like the ones I came from
Because I'm not giving up before I die
I'd rather endure my lifelong goals and challenges
I will always keep my future nearby.
I will keep my head up even if it kills me
So let me just travel along my own rainbow.
those last lines are signs of great hope ..stick to them dear ..keep you head up high
the good day are always ahead..just look at the sunshine.at hope where ever you see
you will make it i am sure ..one day you will..remember that
always try to catch your own rainbow..keep hoping
wonderful write..