To Be There

Is it bad to say I miss us

and all we use to be

cuz outta everyone

you were the one truly there for me

I had someone special

who would've stopped everything to pickup my call

and now I don't have that at all

I messed around and hurt you

cuz I numbed myself to the point I couldn't feel

in turn I missed out on something real

you don't know how often I wish I could take back the time

rewind back to when you were mine

then maybe i'd be fine

why'd I ever let you go

why'd we have to drift apart

i'm glad you even gave me a chance

knowing my struggles from the start

you're the best thing I ever had

that's something I hope you know

but I was the one who chose the path

that didn't involve you though

and now I am lost

pieces of my life still missing

you tried to help me through

I just was too naive to listen

thought I had happiness witta girl who lead me to prison

I put her over you

why'd I have to make that decision

I wish I had another chance with you

don't look like God gonna gimmie that option

so I won't lie I ain't stopping

from popping these pills back

cuz without you in my life it's all black

without you I don't know how to maintain

since you been gone I been going against the grain

my life only seeing the rain

you was my sunshine

while I battled my addiction

you were there on the front-line

I had someone in my life who actually cared

you not being here is something I can't bear

I swear I can still smell your sweet scent in the air

where ever you are i'm wishing to be there