...When I Thought

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The darkness is overwhelming

And sometimes, there is no one to confide in

All there is, is silent words

 

 

The chocolate toffee is on the table

Just in case you don’t want to talk tonight

It’s there for you to keep in your mouth

 

 

 

There’s so much lip that I hear from you

What happened that changed?

I never understood that; the change

 

 

 

Do you mind it if I also pop a toffee in my mouth?

So I don’t have to talk?

Because lately, talking is like igniting a forest

 

 

 

There is suddenly nothing to talk about, you say

Words are coming out my mouth

But they don’t make any sense

 

 

 

You say because I never really wanted to talk to you

And that’s just the case, isn’t it?

But just, roles reversed?

 

 

 

 

You did this to yourself, stuck the pins and needles

Way up on your arm now didn’t you?

Thought so much of yourself

 

 

 

 

And you are more than what you say you are

The rubble is nowhere that I see

The one you said you had

 

 

 

 

I hate that you said that

That you think so low of yourself

When I think so highly of you

 

 

 

 

 

But you’re gone now

I’m not getting it

You always said I was kind of slow

 

 

 

 

 

But I am now aren’t I?

At certain things, yes, I do not understand them

But that doesn’t make me slow

 

 

 

 

You’re gone now

What am I to do?

You expect me to miss you; what can I say?

 

 

 

 

We tried it, didn’t we?

To tighten the strings

To make amends

 

 

 

 

There were times when I thought I had you to myself

When I thought I loved you

When you belonged to me and no one else

 

 

 

 

But now I guess you’re gone

And you’re gone so fast; I barely had time to cry

You left

 

 

 

 

You left out of the door that I guess I have left open

That I guess was open

Didn’t acknowledge it as that door to go through

 

 

 

 

As if that was the place to go

Was it?

Were all your friends there?