Death in Love

I fell in love with this woman, 
I knew loving her I shouldn’t dare, 
But I can't stop love that already begun, 
When my heart's filled with care. 


I am the angel of death, 
I knew how she always shed tears, 
That's why every time she’s out of breath, 
I hope her pain disappears. 


I want her to live well, 
I want her life to be better, 
But I also wish she stays with me in this hell, 
Because I also want her. 


She maybe alone in her world, 
But with me she’ll never be alone. 
Because in this darkness she’ll be my world, 
In this darkness she’ll have her throne. 


Now I can hear her calling, 
Wanting me to come; 
That blade she’s holding, 
I knew the outcome. 


She’s desperate, 
She wants all her pain to go away; 
There’s hopelessness in her state, 
She surrenders in this life’s play. 


As she gasps for air, 
I couldn’t end her life this way; 
I know this is not fair, 
Screwing what they’ll say. 


How could an angel of death grant life? 
It seems ironic on my job; 
But it hurts me seeing her bleed through that knife, 
Even more seeing her sob. 


I’ll save her, 
No matter what consequences it’ll cause; 
Hoping one day her happiness will occur, 
Forgetting how her life once was. 


“This is my gift as your friend”, 
My words as I bid her goodbye; 
“Hurdles are always there so try to blend.” 
I don't want to see you cry. 


Granting her the gift of life, 
Was the best decision I’ve ever done; 
Even if it’s impossible for her to be my wife, 
In my heart she's the only one 


Because in my madness, 
I fell in love with this girl I knew. 
So I hope she’ll find her happiness, 
Because that’s the day I find mine too.

Author's Note

*Photo credits to the owner*
Story Continuation from: A Friend's Gift (http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/kim_joy43/1908197/)

Reviews

[mattavelli]

Hello, Kim, thank you for entering my contest! :)
The phrasing of your first stanza seemed more bent on rhyming than telling your story.

[Kim Jimenez]

Yes, that's always been my weakness in creating poems. I will try to improve to create better ones. Thank you for your review.

[Rheia]

This is truly beautiful, brought tears to my own eyes. It's something I can relate to. You can feel the struggle, the pain, the love, it's really amazing. I can't wait to see more of your work, keep it up :)

[Kim Jimenez]

Thank you. I'm happy you liked it. ❤️

[Lord of mad men]

this is amazing! I feel like this every day. Every where i go sorrow fellows me. Maybe it finds me or I find it but there is always sorrow. My nickname is Azrael. I have loved this very special girl since the day i first met her. before i met her i felt very little. love was just a concept that only the truly lucky got to experience. she was broken as was I so together we were whole but i alway feel like she can do so much better. Without her life has no meaning but even without her i would carry on in order to save her some pain. that is all i want into take away her pain and give her the life she deserves. this is great. its truly speaks to me. keep writing. Yours truly a mad lord P.S you are a finalist

[Kim Jimenez]

I'm glad you like it. I hope your story could have a happy ending. Thank you :)