I was never happy

I was never happy

A Poem by Kim Jimenez
"

Those awful words you bestow, will forever be my heart's cargo.

"


Do you still remember?
The words you utter,
Those words speak out of anger,
Those words that made me suffer.

I remember well, 
Almost too well,
That your words were like a dark spell,
Cursing my heart to feel like hell.

I tried to let those words slide,
And keep myself occupied,
But at night those thoughts in my head collide,
That even my mind is not on my side.

Maybe because your words were so intense,
That my brain couldn't deliberate a defense.
Like it all made a perfect sense,
And start to question my whole existence.

"I'm sorry" that's all I can say,
Sorry for making it turned out that way,
Sorry to be the cause of your dismay,
Sorry in your troubles that's how I repay.

But I just hope that you know,
That I'm also at woe,
And those awful words you bestow,
Will forever be my heart's cargo.

You never knew how I look forward to that night,
Because finally in my darkest days there's light,
But like a bug attracted to the light,
I never knew it will cause my heart to ignite.

Then you asked me if I was happy?
How could I be?
If you only knew how I felt so crappy,
That I just want to flee.

If I'm not there will it happen?
If I'm not there will you be happier then?
Maybe if I'm not there those words weren't spoken,
Maybe if I'm not there my heart won't be broken.

But sadly there I was,
Showing my hateful flaws,
That chaos I was the cause,
And hurtful words uttered without a pause.

It hurts me knowing those words were the view,
On what kind of person I was to you.
I just thought you understood what I was going through,
Sorry for expecting too much of you.

Just know I was never happy,
Before then until now I'm in misery.
How dare am I to be happy,
When knowing I'm your pain hurts me.

© 2018 Kim Jimenez



Author's Note

Kim Jimenez
*Photo Credits to the owner*

My Review

Would you like to review this Poem?
Login | Register




Reviews

Another beautiful poem. I'm impressed on your ability to be able to rhyme every line without them making no sense at all! Good job.
I relate so much to this poem, maybe in a different way from the story behind this but that's what I like about poems. You can take them in any way.
Anyways, I really enjoyed this!

Posted 6 Months Ago


Kim Jimenez

5 Months Ago

Thank you very much. 😊

Request Read Request
Add to Library My Library
Subscribe Subscribe


Stats

146 Views
1 Review
Rating
Shelved in 1 Library
Added on October 3, 2017
Last Updated on April 5, 2018
Tags: Words, Pain

Author

Kim Jimenez
Kim Jimenez

Caloocan, NCR, Philippines



About
Hello! I joined for I love writing poems... :) more..

Writing
Us Us

A Poem by Kim Jimenez