Just Fine

I'm not sure where to start.
I don't even know when it began.
In your hand, you once held a heart that had never before been given away.
From there to your chest it went but then right back it came.
I envisioned us having a future but you have put all that to bed.
You've sought out to see our end.
I thought we were happy & so in love but the key word there, is thought.
Cause obviously what I thought, was wrong.
Because you've said your final goodbye & left me all alone.
With no one to help hold me together as I am slowly falling apart.
At one point, we used to be inseparable.
I wish someone could explain to me how it is that we're now separated.
I'm so devastated.
I devoted to you, my entire life.
Now i'm wondering how I am suppose to get thru these lonely nights without you by my side.
I just want to cry.
I keep trying to fight the tears from leaving my eyes but it's really hitting me hard.
This break up is literally breaking my heart.
I feel so weak.
And my soul is dormant, it's asleep.
But when it awakes, I wonder how it's going to feel when it realizes you're no longer with me.
I wonder how it's going to make it out the dark.
I wonder if it's going to be strong enough to heal my wounded heart.
I'm trying to be strong but I don't know if I can do this on my own.
I wish I could lie like you lied but I just can't act like I am fine.
This pain is too unbearable to hide.
I feel sick to my stomach.
This whole thing is hard for me to stomach.
I can't believe we're apart.
I can't believe I gave you my heart.
My all.
I want to pick up the phone to call.
And apologize for whatever i've done but I don't even know what i'd be apologizing for.
I just want you back, I don't want to be alone.
I gave you eight years of my life.
So how do you expect me to be just fine, without you!?