Made a Decision

rap poem

When I was a little kid
I used to reach up to the stars.
I got older, I just reached towards
the cars and the bars.
I was one of those kids,
had to experience it myself.
Couldn't base it off somebody's
attempt to help.
And I took the hard road,
the road of stupidity.
Didn't want your help,
but I wanted your pity.
Look at poor, poor me,
let me manipulate
as I suck you dry
and become a dead weight.
Lots of long warm nights
pretending to have fun,
but you can't have fun
when your on the run.
And you don't know where it'll end
or how it'll go
when you get back home
and you're all alone.
Tried to stay in the fun,
but the moments would come;
I'd be standing on the staircase
thinking life is done,
give up on my life,
on myself as a loss.
Giving myself away
for lack of a better cost.

And as the days grew longer
it all went black.
I didn't know how to get
the old me back:
the little girl who used to reach up
for the stars,
not the foolish one
getting into strangers cars.
And I looked in the mirror
and I couldn't believe
the bloody little girl
looking back at me.
Made a decision that day
that it'd have to change,
cuz I couldn't be doing
the same damn thing,

I made a decision
that it'd have have to change
cuz I can't be doing
the same damn thing.
I made a decision
that I'd have have to change
cuz I can't be doing
the same old things.
I have to change.

Lots of long cold nights
and stupid decisions
in my mind I conjure
constantly and envision.
The darkness in their eyes,
the darkness in me.
Pretending to be something
I wasn't meant to be.
Cuz I had a purpose,
God had a plan for me
and it didn't include
seeing the things that I've seen.
But I had to go through it
to fully realize
that there was nothing there for me
cept danger and lies.
Nothing to go back to
cept innocence loss.
Gotta rebuild the foundation
no matter the cost.
And live out all my dreams
while I'm still young.
Slowly repair the damage
he and I have done.
Learn to see myself for
the beauty I am,
and not that naive little girl
that was bamboozled and scammed.

And as the days went on
it all got lighter.
I learned that I myself
am indeed a fighter.
I took myself back
and patched up my wounds.
I gained back my sanity,
my life got smooth.
And now I look in the mirror
and I can't believe
that even through my past
how happy I can be.
I made a decision
that I would change
and now I'm not doing
the same damn thing.

Author's Note

My first attempt at a rap song. Let me know what you think :)

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

You did very well with the poem. I like the flow of the rap. This rap had a story and meaning. I don't like music without a reason and purpose. Life teaches us to appreciate the simple things. This poem is very good. Thank you for sharing. We must fall down many times to understand love and good friends is what we need. A outstanding poem.
Coyote