I Brought My Own Light

Always be prepared when darkness calls....

How can God stand idly by as I writhe in unimaginable agony?

Twirling round and round caught in the suffocating debris of this viscous tornado

I’m spiraling further down this pitch black hole that has no end

My brain, it’s on fire!

 

The revolutionary musings of my darkest void have begun pounding,

Pounding against the impenetrable barriers I’ve placed in the farthest corners of my mind

Pugnacious nightmares roaring to life

Recurring visions hell bent on devouring the light I’ve ferreted away

 

The faces of evil don’t adhere to prophecy or care about rebirth

To own ones soul you must own every last shred of it all!

Believe me;

I’m aware of the sins and shortcomings that led to my fall

 

But I will wield the wisdom and passion I possess

And push through the challenges Hell has devised

Each day taking larger and larger strides towards

Who I want to be

 

For so long my light has burned only for you

Your happiness a direct reflection of my own

The only thing that ensured my survival

But I can’t live like that any more

 

A promise that never should have been set upon my shoulders lies broken on the floor

I proudly proclaim “Victory is mine!”

Demons no longer able to dine upon the delectable morsels of my soul

I adamantly refuse to wear the suffocating bondage of oppression a second longer!

 

I won’t walk in the cold shadow of a ghost

Your false promises of grandeur were torture enough, I am done playing host

I must caution you however, If my new found strength elicits a painful burn

Don’t stand so close

 

You don’t deserve me demon spawn

I wasn’t born to be second best

Darkness will never claim dominion over my soul

You may think the hole you’ve pulled me into is dark, scary and has no end…

 

But then you’ve done it again, what you always do

You’ve underestimated me

You’ve gone and forgot,

I brought my own light

 

 

Author's Note

Thanks for reading. All reviews are appreciated

Reviews

[Astro]

Beautiful messages of self-worth, empowerment and freedom stamped in black blood from around your once submerged soul, trampled on and left in the muck unappreciated for it's devotion to uplift and admire. The resilience of that same soul forced down into the night reemerging into the sun is splendid. Great Stuff Kristen.

[Kristin Lee]

Thank you, that is much appreciated :)

[Astro]

Loved it.

[4$H]

The words you have used are... along with the imagery, TOO FREAKING GOOD.
Wish I was this good at poetry :/

[Kristin Lee]

Thank you :)

[Acucena G.]

This piece is totally hilarious , anyone can fall in love with this poem , the feeling is deep and keep us want more.

[Kristin Lee]

Thanks for reading and sharing your response :)

[Acucena G.]

You are welcome

[B-poet]

This poem is very empowering and inspirational. There's nothing like marching to the beat of your own drum backed by your own shining light of living significance. Helping to guide you through the dark patches life has instore for all of us. Great write. A thought provoking read. :)

[Kristin Lee]

Thank you!

[Chris]

Hell is where we find it and living is how we survive it

[Kristin Lee]

Thanks you! It's the subtle mispellings that seem to slip past spell check (my horrible and crippling crutch) and past others eyes. That was very hepful.

[Chris]

it was meant to show you I listened to your thoughts instead of just spending the read time thinking of a comment.

[Kristin Lee]

I greatly appreciate it :)

[Curtis Shannon]

This poem is awesome in that it can relate to anyone. Non-religious and religious. The feel of it is great. The ending: "I brought my own life." Very profound.

[Kristin Lee]

Thanks Curtis! I had to find a way to get out of the maddess. What better way to best the dark than to be prepared?

[Jack...]

I love the ending of this piece, I brought my own light. Talk about wrapping it up nicely. Very good my friend.

[Kristin Lee]

Thanks :)

[Frieda P]

Very affecting write of struggle and the will to overcome. The ending was a great punch of strength.

'Pugnacious nightmares roaring to life' that line really resonated with me...

Think that 'forgotten' would read better, that's just me, still loved this read.

[Kristin Lee]

Thank you so much!

I toyed with that tense, 'forgot' vs. 'forgotten' for quite a while and it was definitely a hard decision. At first I agreed that 'forgotten' would have been the better choice. But then I eliminated words in my head and heard the context like this:
" You've underestimated me.
Once again, You forgot."

And so I chose, right or not, to use 'forgot, and have it be an added flaw in the subtext. Because it speaks to her state of mind :)

I'm so glad you noticed though! Thank you!

[Frieda P]

Either is right, the choice is up to you, I understand how you arrived there. Makes sense to me....was the teeniest blip, I loved it!

[s y e]

Wow, this was great. I haven't read much of you writes but from what I've read recently, I am becoming a huge fan, you write with such honesty and passion. This will be relatable to many people, religious and non-religious. I loved the structure and the flow of this piece, really well done.

Amazing job.

[Kristin Lee]

Thank you so much!

[Sami Khalil]

You work is so good for you mix reality with wisdom and to get the message across. I like :
"I proudly proclaim “Victory is mine!”
Demons no longer able to dine"
For that sums it up with great precision ...
As always well done work...:)

[Kristin Lee]

Thanks Sami. I've always has such dark writing, I'm tring to infuse it with things and messages that matter now that I'm at a better place in life.

[Sami Khalil]

Good stuff...Good job...:)