A COMING-OUT PARTY

?? ?? 97. See notes.

You all could have a valid claim
in saying I'm unkind
At this stage in this drawn-out game
I really do not mind

To fit in with your black-tie crowd
at this I worked for years
but you were much too brash and loud
to hear my mumbled fears

Your world seems so very quaint
How quick you get respected
Intruders like a boring saint
are hastily rejected

This world is unfairly cruel
contrary to your conscience
but now that we are out of school
you're losing correspondence

I know I should be firm and stout
and just be proud of living
but when I look abroad I doubt
an equal share was given

The cliques who rule will have no part
of my imagination
The remnants of this shattered heart?
The blood of resignation

Author's Note

People "come out" in a lot of ways for any number of reasons. My "coming out" was in words with this, the first thing I ever wrote, back in 1997. I feel like a bit of a drama-queen reading it now but, well, I was pissed...

Reviews

[The Random Writings Of ..]

Oh, I can't believe I am the first to comment on this. This is so heartbreaking my friend.
"To fit in with your black-tie crowd
at this I worked for years
but you were much too brash and loud
to hear my mumbled fears"
These lines right here I think sums it up so well! The feelings that you must of felt, oh that so many must have felt. When my brother came out to me, he was scared, but I assured him I would NEVER turn my back on him, and when my parents found out they accepted him as well. But so many fell the "Cliques" and are different from so many others when in truth we are all the same.
"This world is unfairly cruel
contrary to your conscience
but now that we are out of school"
This stanza I also like because it shows that yes the world so unfairly cruel, and we do think that once we move out of the "teen years" We hope for a better chance.
You are not a "drama-queen" but have every right to your feelings! I wish that someday, it will be easier, and more accepting for all. To me we are all one. I applaud you for sharing this - although you did not send it to me, I came by it on your page..... But non the less. You are a great writer and have become somewhat of a kindred spirit to me my friend! Great piece!

[kublakhan27]

I didn't send you this one? I'm sorry about that, I thought I did...this is certainly one I would have been more than willing to share :)

This one definitely means a lot to me for so many reasons...I'm glad you're the first one to comment on it :) I made it a point to date this as a "post-school" poem...it wasn't something written in the heat of the moment, and certainly not in the heat of a school moment lol This one was many years in the making, and I can't say I've deviated a whole lot from the message in the years since it's been written, but it certainly makes me happy to know it is relate-able and that it means something to people other than myself :)

[The Random Writings Of Me..Kates]

Yes, I can understand that - This piece should be close to you. I can see how it has - had affected you. I am just heartbroken that you have had to feel this way. I have felt the pain second hand through my own brother and best friends and what they have had to go through. Although it may be relate-able to many, it is still yours. And as you said "People "come out" in a lot of ways for any number of reasons" this was your experience. Much love my friend.

[kublakhan27]

Your support far outweighs any degree of heartbreak I was harbouring within myself when this was written :) You are a genuinely kind person and your brother is lucky to have you for a sister :) Much love from me to you in return.

[The Random Writings Of Me..Kates]

Always my friend!

[kublakhan27]

:)

[Tate Morgan]

you are right this is more to my taste and well done It tells a story front to back and makes m e feel something goal achieved

[kublakhan27]

Thank you Tate, I'm glad you enjoyed it.

[Kenaz]

Another style and emotion unique to its owner. I believe anyone who feels left out can relate in at least some way to this. Sometimes in our darkest hours come the best scribbles. A poet you are indeed.

[kublakhan27]

Thanks very much, that means a lot to hear^^