Because

Because

A Poem by Laura E. Aranda
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Spoken word form. Created when I was of course crying. Excuse the lack of witty lines, it is just me...real and blantantly open

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I weep because people can be so callous and so stupid and sometimes I am one of them.

And it eats my heart away, one chamber at a time.

I weep because I have to be the strong one,

because I want my daughter's life to be better than it is now.

I weep because there is no medal of perfection on this mother.

I am tiring of the facade.

I wish life weren't complicated.

I weep because of all the past failures and daily mistakes I make.

I weep because I struggle between a world of being 'The Mother' and 'His Wife'.

Why should I have to parent him too?

I weep because sometimes it feels as if we aren't meant to be.

 

I weep for my father.

I weep for my mother.

Life with them as as a house of mirrors.

Everyone looks like the good guy.

Everyone looks like the bad guy.

I weep for my sister.

I should have been there.

I should have steered her along more closely.

Now I fear for the illigiment child birthed that no one wants.

I want to light a match and burn this house down.

I weep for my future.

Where is that ray of hope?

I weep because He wrote the book and I didn't.

I weep because I go unrecognized, growing older with no merits, no badges, no Harvard degrees.

I weep because time can not be retracted.

I weep over the quote, "The past is a faraway land in which we can never return."

I am tired of weeping.

I want to burn the walls down.

I am so sorry.

8-05-08

© 2008 Laura E. Aranda


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You wept of yourself, smile..but not changing face,but by facing change. We all are same, so there's no point wasting your precious tears, or eating your heart's chambers one by one...Think there're just four little chambers, not enough for a proper lunch so change your menu. Instead eat up the sorrow, all your pains and worries even you could try a little ego. You wept because you were crying, and so you couldn't see the smile of your daughter, which is because of you..Sure her life will be better much better..But nothing's much better for her than your loving smile...You're there with her and that matters the most.You don't have a medal of perfection because there's no such medal. So don't worry. And by the way who misinformed you that weeping makes one stronger. It's a pure fuzz, it's not at all healthy. Yeah once a while it's good for your eyes but don't get into this impression that weeping will make you strong,so please don't weep to be strong but be strong enough so you won't weep. Life's never so complicated but we make it so, try not to feel this way, go with the flow take life as it comes and soon the complications will be solved, well i think complications even sound so complicated. So stop thinking this way, try but don't cry. We all do mistakes and yeah sometimes they are really really big, but to cry over it won't change the past mistakes. It's done. It'd be better if we try not to repeat such thing again, that's a much healthier way than crying. After all health is wealth. And please don't worry of anything that's happened.You're a mother and a wife, both are your form don't weep. Life's not a crying competition..yeah there are good times and bad times..Sometimes really really big BAD times. . Come what may one thing you can always do is Love. You parent him because noone else can. When a girl marries a boy she becomes a mother and he becomes a child. And it's really really difficult to be a woman. So many lives you live..a daughter, a friend, a sister, a wife, a mother and in all this you're also YOU. So it's not easy at all. But there are women. You can do this all. Just love. You've all the love of this world..that's why you were chosen to be a woman. Pour this love out of your heart..let it fill your world.Don't burn your world but burn the incense of love and hope in it. You asked "where is that ray of hope" well,there is no other ray,You're the sun. But if you cry, how would you see the rays of hope. Don't do this. Don't weep for anyone..Not for your father nor for your mother or for your sister. Be thankful for them. You're not an unwanted thing. You're here because someone needs you. Don't cry for your future..someone is still working on it. Don't cry for future nor for past, both are not in your hands now. Live your present as it's the only present which is still present to you. Live this gift of God. Don't cry for his book but try reading it. Books are to be read..And to be written also so write your dreams. But you should understand that everything takes time. Don't run don't push don't cry. You're not being unrecognized, just see someone up there is watching you..He's only waiting for your rewards and trophies to come. As soon as He gets them from the factory then He'll fulfill your desire. Wait for the right time. You cry because time cannot be retraced..Yes dear, time connot be retraced but do you know it means Actually Cannot. Not Even By Crying. So why are you crying..Don't weep over any quote because you cannot change it by crying. Don't burn the walls but paint them new..with your dreams..make pictures on them..write on them your stories.. Hang your memories make them realised that your life is beautiful. Let your house be a home. Let you become ALIVE.
Kindly don't mind my way of writing, i didn't want to be so serious, it was just to make you feel light. (if i sounded offensive, then i'm sorry).
So turn on the light. See your world's so bright. Please don't close your eyes to the hope and to love. Don't feel sorry, Don't cry but try!
Blessings to you and to everyone that makes your world beautiful.

Posted 15 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.



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This is a very vivid confession that keeps the reader hooked.
The things you confess are very well chosen for something outstanding, but I think you should have put in some speech flowers, and maybe make it little shorter.

A.M.



Posted 15 Years Ago


I'm not too much into spoken words form but I will try to write something in that form after reading this.
This is GREAT! and after reading so many good reviews I'm feeling so small to review it...
All I could say is that this is one of the best writings I have ever read in my entire lifetime!

Posted 15 Years Ago


believe me i feel like weeping too...this peom is strong and thought provoking, well penned and universally relating. i know its a natural thing, a situation we go through in life but dont get it too hard on you. it was said "IF YOU KEEP MOVING FORWARD WITHOUT EVER LOOKING BACKWARDS YOU ARE REALLY GOING NOWHERE". laura even if life ad its journey is twisted, when you look back you realise you have indeed moved somewhere- the daughter you have is enough to make you feel happy forever considering the fact that some wombs are barren, some kids will forever grow up to never know there parents and or families (take the majority of children in africa and war stricken countries). believe me that is life and the odds that roll with it.please dont cry laura (although crying atimes has that soothing and grief relieving tendencies. but dont bound your self too much to it or else it will demoralise you to never be able to see the future with positivity....so keep your head up and smile for me now please (thats good)

Posted 15 Years Ago


You wept of yourself, smile..but not changing face,but by facing change. We all are same, so there's no point wasting your precious tears, or eating your heart's chambers one by one...Think there're just four little chambers, not enough for a proper lunch so change your menu. Instead eat up the sorrow, all your pains and worries even you could try a little ego. You wept because you were crying, and so you couldn't see the smile of your daughter, which is because of you..Sure her life will be better much better..But nothing's much better for her than your loving smile...You're there with her and that matters the most.You don't have a medal of perfection because there's no such medal. So don't worry. And by the way who misinformed you that weeping makes one stronger. It's a pure fuzz, it's not at all healthy. Yeah once a while it's good for your eyes but don't get into this impression that weeping will make you strong,so please don't weep to be strong but be strong enough so you won't weep. Life's never so complicated but we make it so, try not to feel this way, go with the flow take life as it comes and soon the complications will be solved, well i think complications even sound so complicated. So stop thinking this way, try but don't cry. We all do mistakes and yeah sometimes they are really really big, but to cry over it won't change the past mistakes. It's done. It'd be better if we try not to repeat such thing again, that's a much healthier way than crying. After all health is wealth. And please don't worry of anything that's happened.You're a mother and a wife, both are your form don't weep. Life's not a crying competition..yeah there are good times and bad times..Sometimes really really big BAD times. . Come what may one thing you can always do is Love. You parent him because noone else can. When a girl marries a boy she becomes a mother and he becomes a child. And it's really really difficult to be a woman. So many lives you live..a daughter, a friend, a sister, a wife, a mother and in all this you're also YOU. So it's not easy at all. But there are women. You can do this all. Just love. You've all the love of this world..that's why you were chosen to be a woman. Pour this love out of your heart..let it fill your world.Don't burn your world but burn the incense of love and hope in it. You asked "where is that ray of hope" well,there is no other ray,You're the sun. But if you cry, how would you see the rays of hope. Don't do this. Don't weep for anyone..Not for your father nor for your mother or for your sister. Be thankful for them. You're not an unwanted thing. You're here because someone needs you. Don't cry for your future..someone is still working on it. Don't cry for future nor for past, both are not in your hands now. Live your present as it's the only present which is still present to you. Live this gift of God. Don't cry for his book but try reading it. Books are to be read..And to be written also so write your dreams. But you should understand that everything takes time. Don't run don't push don't cry. You're not being unrecognized, just see someone up there is watching you..He's only waiting for your rewards and trophies to come. As soon as He gets them from the factory then He'll fulfill your desire. Wait for the right time. You cry because time cannot be retraced..Yes dear, time connot be retraced but do you know it means Actually Cannot. Not Even By Crying. So why are you crying..Don't weep over any quote because you cannot change it by crying. Don't burn the walls but paint them new..with your dreams..make pictures on them..write on them your stories.. Hang your memories make them realised that your life is beautiful. Let your house be a home. Let you become ALIVE.
Kindly don't mind my way of writing, i didn't want to be so serious, it was just to make you feel light. (if i sounded offensive, then i'm sorry).
So turn on the light. See your world's so bright. Please don't close your eyes to the hope and to love. Don't feel sorry, Don't cry but try!
Blessings to you and to everyone that makes your world beautiful.

Posted 15 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

Regrets, regrets, regrets! Haven't we all gone through such a litany of sorrows at one time or another. All I can say is, don't worry. You're not an orphan. We are all in that same leaky boat, and we hear what you're saying. In the meantime yes, it does help to write out your feelings, because it helps to put things in perspective. Keep writing.
David.

Posted 15 Years Ago


I can so relate to this. It is as if you have invaded my mind, my thoughts my very life itself. I know every line, every word by heart for I myself have spoken them countless times.I thought it would end once my four children were grown, but no, now I have 12 grandchildren and it has all began anew.
Thank you for writing down my thoughts.
This is going to my favs.

Posted 15 Years Ago


The desperation and yearning for something better. The lost of hope -the mistakes from the past-- This poem was very sad�Yet thought provoking. I love the quote (The past is a faraway land in which we can never return." ) Poetry therapy- its good for you and makes some damn good bleeding heart poems�Not to say that I want to see anyone sad, but next time your down grab that pen� Great poem�.

Posted 15 Years Ago


I know how you feel in this one. It's very sad when u try to do everything u possibly can, and nobody even looks up and notices. You do everything for people, yet they dont treat u the same way, and ur left cleaning up after everyone again, and again...and ur not getting anywhere but digging the grave further and further all the way down. Yep, ive felt this many times. But in the end, im sure we'll be rewarded for all of our hard work that we put into things. Others may not recognize or appreciate all of the hard work we do, but at least the Big Guy upstairs knows exactly what we've done, and im sure he'll definitely reward us in the end with many good things :) Powerful and heartfelt poem. It touched me a lot. Great job with this!

B.A.

Posted 15 Years Ago



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