Can't you hear it?

just some stuff about my mental health but i'm not sure if it'll be any good.

Sometimes i feel all alone but i have all these voices i call home,

Can't you hear them too? All these voices coming through,

Can't you hear them too? All these voices calling you,

Can't you hear them too? All these voices coming through,

I can hear you too, but your voice isn't coming through.

All the abuse,

all the neglect,

all these voices trapped in my head,

I can't seem to escape all the things they say and all the memories they play,

Please tell me is this all just a game?

I was told gods putting me through this to see how much strength i have to survive,

But tell me is it all worth it?

I may be young but i feel so old,

Why do i feel so cold and alone?

My lifes barely started but i'm afraid it's about to end,

I wish it can be spent sitting next to you,

Why must god be so cruel?

So please tell me is it all worth it?

I can't escape all these memories being played,

I can't escape all this darkness,

Can someone save me from the voices i call home?

Why must i feel so alone?

I know i'm not strong and i know i'm not smart but i still got my heart,

I might not be a saint and i might be a sinner but please god save me from this nightmare,

Why must i do this to prove my strength when everything feels so impossible,

Who can relate to these feelings of hate?

Who can relate when your scares start to itch for the need of release?

All my skin feels so tight so i cut to feel free,

Don't get me wrong it's been four years since i've harmed,

but the thoughts still remain,

Some how somewhere i found a little glimmer of hope in all this despair,

It might just be worth it to see myself grow old,

So please take my hand and guide me through this journey,

I might have strayed from the path but i feel it's about time i live my life without looking back,

Im leaning on you for support till i learn to walk on my own so please don't leave.