"Release Therapy"

for some reason you have a hold on me
that I can't quite explain
the pain of release
I thought deceased
when I gave you the peace sign
but apparently, my heart was saying
something different ... & for once
I wish we spoke the same language

while my mind knows better
the four page letter my heart has dripping
in the ink of the boiling blood
and lingering love
from the forgotten gypsy
leaves me tipsy, drunk on love lost
the cost, it won't heal me &
this game of Russian Roulette ends up
leaving bullet holes in all the wrong places

I can't stop crying & crying
you continue lying & lying
until the truth lies before me
& I am forced to see you for who you really are
your colors aren't water proof
& my pastels have turned primary
as my secondary thoughts of you were
actually what I should've been thinking
in the first place

everything must go

toxic vibes must be let go
as I now know
you were never a choice
but merely a scrumptious midnight snack
I pack on the rare occasion I crave something
extra sweet
now when we meet .. we are left with nothing
but sour thoughts & good memories

you needed me
for comfort
sense of clarity
& since my charity has been donated
everything must flow
everything must know
everything must go
all of me shall finally know that I am done
with the one that clung to me
like a newborn baby
only to satisfy one's urges
& electric surges .. just to fall dim

.. I've finally let go of him ..

finally