Oceans of Bipolar

Oceans of Bipolar

A Poem by Davidgeo
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from moment to moment
let me tell you how happy
and f*****g enraged i am
in regards to you
i'm so happy to see you
and i can't f*****g stand you
in between that
i want to kill myself
and live forever
and it's all your fault
that it's all my fault
because i have already had enough
and i need you more and more
as this always makes sense
if you can't think about it
like i can't think about it
so do ask me tomorrow 
about my irrational impulses
but don't ask me anything
as it's none of your business
i just want you to understand
and to leave me for now
so i can chase you forever
and not want anything to do with you
when i catch you
because i only want everything to do with 
you
but never
me
and my lovely monster
with my hideous love
making it all worthwhile
for not one f*****g reason
that ever made sense
(run)

© 2018 Davidgeo


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Extremes, from one end of the spectrum to the other. You gave a really good account of how this must feel, and right now I'm thinking, that must be hell to live with for anyone having to cope with that. From exhilaration to despair and back, from heaven to hell. I watched the video and although I couldn't decipher all the lyrics, I found the music both calming and stirring. Watching the grey ocean being replaced by vibrant colour, gave me a little understanding.

Chris

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Davidgeo

5 Years Ago

For some the cycling between manic and depression can last months into years and in others they cycl.. read more
Chris Shaw

5 Years Ago

What a rollercoaster existence. Thank you for explaining David. This poem, one of your best and has .. read more
Davidgeo

5 Years Ago

It was my pleasure Chris.



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So for those who can’t easily understand the terms there are the examples. Some people call that illustration; I call it writing. But what do I know?

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Davidgeo

5 Years Ago

I honestly am not sure what you know.
I'm not bipolar, but I still feel this on an emotional level. It's sometimes how I feel when I break it off with someone. How, when you no longer want to be with them because you no longer feel the same for them, but you're so used to being with them that you feel empty when you're not with them anymore. And how, while you're separated, you desperately want to be with that person again, but once you get back together, you regret it and the cycle starts all over again. I am loving your poems more and more, and regretting that I am only just now starting to read them.

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Davidgeo

5 Years Ago

I think that's a pretty accurate description of the end of a relationship right there; I think most .. read more
This is my favorite of your writing at the time of this review. The back and forth between wanting, hating, loving, and not wanting is so painfully realistic. You have hit humanity on the head with a hammer that shows the truth of indecisiveness in all of us. Great, truly great piece of work.
-Richard

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Davidgeo

5 Years Ago

That's high praise. Thank you Richard.
Beautiful, yet painful. A very accurate way of describing how bipolar disorder makes people feel or think. Great piece.

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Davidgeo

5 Years Ago

Thanks maxflight. Glad you liked it and I hope it was illuminating in regards to the disorder. The.. read more
The dichotomy of love...it actually makes me think of the dichotomy of arterial and venous blood flowing to and from the heart. One oxygenates, the other hypoxiates. Doesn't love do much the same thing to the heart?

Everyone is free to walk away from something they don't understand and what perplexes them but is a thought to be spared for those who may never have meant for any of it to happen and will be equally as hurt, if not more?

Yet no pleas for any side. Whatever the fallout, a man has to do what a man has to do. Let others be.

A very fine poem on ambiguity in love, David ❤

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

DIVYA

5 Years Ago

To me, this poem is one of your greater literary offerings. It has a soul. I usually have to scrape .. read more
Davidgeo

5 Years Ago

Ever see a movie called 'The Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind'? You should watch it if you alr.. read more
DIVYA

5 Years Ago

Ok. Today evening....
Extremes, from one end of the spectrum to the other. You gave a really good account of how this must feel, and right now I'm thinking, that must be hell to live with for anyone having to cope with that. From exhilaration to despair and back, from heaven to hell. I watched the video and although I couldn't decipher all the lyrics, I found the music both calming and stirring. Watching the grey ocean being replaced by vibrant colour, gave me a little understanding.

Chris

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Davidgeo

5 Years Ago

For some the cycling between manic and depression can last months into years and in others they cycl.. read more
Chris Shaw

5 Years Ago

What a rollercoaster existence. Thank you for explaining David. This poem, one of your best and has .. read more
Davidgeo

5 Years Ago

It was my pleasure Chris.
Wow. Honestly this is so deep and I can feel the extreme hatred, and yet the longing. Not being able to make up your mind, the moment you thought your mind was made up.

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Davidgeo

5 Years Ago

It's not the most pleasant thing to experience but sometimes it's the most pleasant thing to experie.. read more
Rylee David

5 Years Ago

Of course!
Extreme opposites can both compel and constrain I guess, depending on the way the poles are set, they will either attract, or repel... Thoroughly enjoyed. Neville

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Davidgeo

5 Years Ago

I'm glad you enjoyed. Thank you for your comment.
Neville

5 Years Ago

Pleasure..

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