Sea Glass

I wrote this after breaking up with my boyfriend last year. I feel like I always act too sweet in order to reach some social expectation, but then I end up hurting people when they find out who I am..

the only beneficial relationship you've had is with your keyboard.
everyone else turns out to be 
completely insane
and the opposite of everything you thought-
well, told yourself they were.
I'm just a chocolate covered
shard of glass-
Lovers of sweetness chase me 
and end up getting hurt,
but maybe if I shook off the chocolate, 
I'd attract those few who love a pretty piece of glass.
That's what I am from now on- 
no hiding my sharp edges.
I want to be free from the guilt
of causing chocolate lovers pain.
I think if I just got lost in something bigger than me, alone for a while-
like poetry and art, or the ocean-
my chocolate and sharp edges would wash away
until I was a smooth, bright piece of seaglass
for someone to find on the beach.
The only problem is
I can't jump into my ocean
of poetry and art
because who will deal with college
and bills
and cars
and insurance
and neighbors...
God, I hate neighbors.
I'm doomed to be a shard of glass
cutting tongues
and wishing for the sea.

Author's Note

all critiques welcome :)

Reviews

[Frieda P]

'Chocolate lovers pain'...whoa! Love it...this is a special rant, with tons of savvy class thrown in. I only hope it's dark chocolate, cause then it'd be perfect!

[livicote]

Thanks! And as the poem indicates, you might need to look somewhere else if you're looking for something sweet, lol :)

[Frieda P]

I'm down with the dark chocolate lovers pain. ;-)
My pleasure for sure...

[fireblossom]

Glass as the object. Young glass can be sharp. It may have been broken in anger, neglect, or as the object of art. A good choice to carry the load of your life lesson. Chocolate. I wish you would not use chocolate as bait. My tongue is bleeding...I never stop to think when chocolate is on the line.

You are born to write poetry I think...or did you have a near death experience and were born again to this life? :-)

[livicote]

Thanks so much!! My glass is sharp because of my nature, and I try to hide it because not only are most girls smooth, they aren't even cold, hard glass at all, they are soft cupcakes and doilies and s**t. (Do they censor on here?)

Thanks so much for the comment, it really means a lot!

[fireblossom]

One of my favorite comments comes from Doctor Seuss - Say what you feel be who you are because those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter. :D

[livicote]

Lol, if only it were that easy. I have a lot of identity problems, but that is a very true quote, dr suess is awesome :D

[Holly Mason]

lovers of sweetness chase me...cute line
thank you for sharing

[livicote]

Thank you :D

[mikl paul]

the last three lines tie this together so well.

[livicote]

Thanks!