I have never

I have never had someone tell me that i'm their “best friend”, other than my sister

I am no one’s number one

I only have one friend whom I consider family and they consider me family

I have only had one person go out of there way to get me something randomly, but they were expected to do that

I have severe trust issues

I have been bullied all my life

I hide behind a wall of sarcasm

No one knows what I feel inside

They all think i’m always happy

But what they don’t know is that i’m not

I’m happy sometimes

But I have those days when I want it all to end

They don’t know that sometimes I hate life

No one knows my past

No one wants to know

When people ask me how my day is going, I just say “good” so that they don’t have to listen to my problems

I have never been very close with other people

I use sarcasm to mask my real feelings

Sometimes what they think is sarcasm, really isn't

I don’t think anyone will ever truly love me

I feel like I have to change for people, but I can’t

I’m stuck with how I feel and act

Even if I wanted to change, I couldn't

I can’t say that my life sucks, because it doesn't

I have everything I need to live

But there are things in my life that I want to let go of

And there are things that I desperately want

But my life goes on

And it will keep going  for a long time

Even if it never changes

I’m okay

Reviews

[Lord of mad men]

Wow i just had to review this which this is wow just so loud. It us exactly what my girlfriend is like she thinks i dint know but i do. She tells me all the time she wishs for life to just end. Its her past that makes her feel the way that makes her feel the way shd is. If that makes sense. I love her more then life it self. If we can find each other in this wide open wold you can if you already have not too. I enjoyed every single word. Thank you so very much for sharing! Keep on doing this. You a wonderful at writing. Love this piece alot! Great job. Very nicely done. Yours truely a mad lord