scattered

i wanted nothing but love

from a broken angel

a lost cause settled down like dust

my heart now broke my soul for sale

 

nevermind begging you back

i tried my best and now i am gone

i never hurt more than i did with you

but i never loved like i did love you

 

scattered thoughts across the open plain of my brain

never connecting the obvious till it is thrown at me

that picture i saw took away my breathe

your lips on someone elses heart

 

after all the lies you told me

after my hopes were up and

i thought maybe i would get you back

you ripped away the only light i had

 

i give you now the ultimatum to love me or leave me

i can't drag myself along changing for you

when i will never be good enough

i know not what to do anymore

 

i cry for countless hours

for nothing just to get emptiness back

i walked in this building today and i felt nothing

just a numbness

 

i am me yet i am gone

my heart shattered remains as my brains does too

i try so hard to make you see

i guess you cant make a blind man see

 

i wish nothing more than to see you fall away

i dont want one memory of us to fill my head another day

i know one day you'll fade away

but it isnt happening quick enough

 

i want you gone from me

i want to hate you

not love you with everything i have

i want to look at you and not care

 

at my most emotional times i can write the best poetry

but no you took that away all my thoughts scattered
i now come up with random broken words

left unrhymed so raw with fear and anger

 

i want so much to just make you look at me

and tell me you want me back

 we always say i love you and that we miss each other

but no more do i want to hear those words from your mouth

 

i am tired of your lies your little strings

to pull me along falling tripping over you

i listened to the saddest songs now

in hopes of finding one answer

 

i have none not a single answer

for the million of questions i want to ask

i tell myself to breathe

but yet i cant seem to inhale

 

i pass her in the hall ways and i want nothing more than to scream at her

no i wont because that would make you mad

see i still care so much of what you think

i changed so much to please you

made myself into something i dont know

 

i like who i am with you

happy and content

even though my heart is broke i want to see you

just tell me you want to see me too

 

i have no words to explain my heart

my world feels like it is crashing down

yet i stand here waiting for you

i'll never give up

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how pathetic is that?