Perfectionist

When I look into the mirror,

I feel a disconnection

I don’t know who I’ve become,

Staring at my own reflection

The years are flying by

But somewhere I got lost

My demons still exist inside,

I can’t shut out my thoughts

When did life become overwhelming?

I’m weighed down by the stress

I know I need to take care of myself

But today I’m such a mess

Relaxing is a foreign word

My mind just wants to race

Never enough hours in the day

I can’t keep at this pace

I’m supposed to be responsible,

To have things figured out

But as time keeps on going,

I find I have more doubts

Of love and work and morals

Of the dreams I want to achieve

I keep on second guessing myself

Hope’s a hard thing to believe

VJS 2012