Guilt Trip

You've been there,
In the back of my mind
That place I avoid like a virus
You've set up shop, and I've ignored it

Self-preservation in the slightest

And I've, waited for death
A million seconds away, it seems
I can't get a hold of myself
Now and I've lost it all
To you

It's not something that can be
Simply put,
I've always had to be
On the lookout

Yeah I'd like to think it's
'Cause I couldn't relate
But I can now, to everyone around,
I know it sounds like it's too late,
Just hear me out, yeah?

I've waited for life,
A billion little moments, it seems
I just can't let go of my past
And now I've lost my future
To you

Yeah you were there when I was
Only thirteen
Wasn't my fault,
But I let it sting
Psychotic complex I've paved
Over everything
And I know it seems that I'm okay,
Just beneath my smile, I'm burning away
Dying like

I've waited for you,
A trillion confabulations, and
Mistakes, I can't shake the fact
I can't take back what I've done
'Cause of

You made me Impervious,
I'd murder shamelessly, and
I can't live all the years I've lost
To you

Reviews

[Hsnx]

i loved the line I just can't let go of my past
And now I've lost my future
To you it was amazing ..expressed it very well..i could feel the pain and hurt..amazing read

[Chris Shaw]

Long term, deep hurt. I felt it in your lines, and you expressed that pain well.

Chris

[Indra's Child]

Thank you for your review. I'm glad to see people understanding this. boop booop
Lp

[Chris Shaw]

boop, booop :)))

[Dara]

This piece exudes deep hurt. Lost time that can never be gotten back...
You did good.

[Indra's Child]

Thank you so much for your review. I appreciate it lots, boop booop
Lp