A Mental Note from Another Broken Soul

Here I am once again

Lying in this familiar room

Getting used to the faint smell of socks and dried tears

Reminding me who I was for the past three years

While being swallowed wholly by the roof that seems so low

Buried deeply by the floor tainted with pain and sorrow

Trapped by the walls that was too crowded for two

Toxicated lungs by the air that gets through

Lost with the thoughts I had

More bewildered by the emotions that had driven me mad

Drained with the strength to hold myself together

Knowing that I will fall apart anyway

Any moment, any time, any place today

Waited for so long to carve the words into my wrists

For the moment of admittance and acceptance of defeat

After series and series of incessant personal struggles

After all, I've decided to end it where the journey all started

With a blade in hand, a pen and note behind

Inside the room which had been a witness

Of how I helplessly let the thoughts turn my mind to a mess

As I made a stroke and another of its kind

It came out beautiful, unexpectedly

Enough to let me close my eyes permanently

With a smile etched on my ungrateful soul

And eternal peace engulfed me whole.