Smoking Kills

I’m restless on my bed

My eyes are swollen and red

Every thought a blur in my head

Every sound, every sight

Everything you said

I don’t know what to think

I don’t know what to say

This has been my worst day

 

Smoking can kill

In more ways than one

Against my will

I realized something I want undone

It turned the only image I loved of you

Into something I hate through and through

 

I've never seen so much anger

In the person I most adore

It was never there

I would have known

It just exploded out of nowhere

I’m glad I never said you were perfect

I’d be a fool

I want to forget how you could be so cruel

 

I can shift the blame around

But the true fault surrounds me

There are no reasons

We do what we do

I’m just glad I wasn't you

 

I want to blame everyone but you

But no matter how hard I try

It all comes back to you and I cry

I’m seeing you for the very first time

With a callous eye

As if you committed the worst crime

 

You always were my hero

Even when you don’t know

I just have to understand

That you were never ideal

Even when you raised your fists

I’ll love you as long as I live