Adrift Craving..

I reminisce about my recent months, nothing has been consistent, yet everything has been the same. I'm not sure if I would say that I've been trying to sustain relations, but what I do know is that I haven't been able to keep them. Am I hard to love? Am I hard at loving? Very often I find that I long for the feeling and warmth and lovingness. I crave it. I haven't taken the time to look within myself correctly, which has lead me into many almost 'relationships'. Not until I have no more options do I take the time to think, "Why is it that I crave for such a feeling and I cannot fulfill its needs?" Its almost coincidental, everything has been weird. Why am I so upset? Why is it that I feel as if I've lost something. Perhaps, I've lost myself. Relationships take a toll on you. You feel the constant need to be in one and need to feel loved constantly. What is it that I lack? What is it that I lack? What is it that I lack?